Lastnight

this post was supposed to be written last night but when I got home it was already a liitle late.
Lastnight as I was driving home and flippin' through the radio stations I came acroos a song that reminded me of you and before I knew it tears came running down my face.I cant beleive your gone,its hard to comprhend on why this happened to you.all the memories I have of you are filled with laughter and love.Imiss you very much and really wished you were still around.It sucks that the day I decide to visit you it will have to be in a cementary,Im going to miss out on the hug that you would of gave me, on you saying to me "mija finalmente estas aqui"forgive me if I never reached out to you but Im extremely happy that before you left this earth I was able to tell you that I love you.I will never forget that day and we did it through facebook,of all places!!!I know now that you are in a place where you feel no pain,where your able to see all of us at the same time,where you get to smile upon us and I hope one day I will be there sitting next to you.Como te extrano mi tio querido!!!Yo queiro que sepas que nunca te olvidare,siempre te voy a tener en mi corazon.
Con mucho carino de mi parte, Carol Hernandez

Random

"Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.”

Karma dont know this Bitch

I dont even know how to start this post but here it goes..


last week I was checking our bank statements on line when I saw a charge for a local resturant,of coyrse it wasnt me cause lord knows that with my 2 babies a resturant meal is going to mcdonalds or burger king.I ask the man playfully just like this"so how was your food from Rico's?"he laughs and says"how do you know"duh I stay at home! okay well Im not one to ever ask why when or where because Im just not that type,I know he always takes his employees to lunch so it was no big deal.(his employees include 3 males and 1 female)Fast forward to this week,yesterday to be excat I was doing laundry when I came upon the receipt from the resturant and this is what it said..1 fajitas for 2,3 bud beers,and 2 margaritas.?!?!?!Now Im not one to jump to conclusions bacause Im the type that knows everything from you or about just by a simple hello,and this shit here caught me off guard!how do 4 people eat from this and then the margaritas???hmmmmm had me thinking!!!! but then I was like you know what Fuck It!!! I knew Karma was a bitch but she hasnt met this Bitch named Carol!!! and I was surprised bacaise the only karma I have coming my way has to do with my kids(I treated my mom like shit)and nothing else and I do mean nothing else!!!!!!!!!! well you know what when my mind thinks of this word REVENGE it comes up with some pretty fucked up shit and this bitch know excatly where to throw those low blows,I know how to make it hurt like there aint no tomoorow,I will say some shit to youm that you will NEVER forget,I will throw all your dirt in your face,I will make you go fucking insane!! thats just the type of BITCH I am if and only when you do me wrong!!!I have always had the I dont give a fuck mentality and this gives me a reason to fuck some shit up up but I havent yet got all the clues,the last time this shit happened lets just sayboth of them got hurt in ways to this day they cant forget!! and I had it wrong the first time around so I have to keep my shit together and think throughly on this one.I could be a sorry ass m-f but not yet not yet.
Fuck Im sure this is a long one but I just had to get it out,

Franco

Well I have to say that it is 9:20 ish here in Texas and i have finished cleaning the bathroom,kitchen,living room and im about to be done with laundry!!!!!today has been a very productive morning and I owe i all to the best sister in law ever Rosa,she gave me a call at 7am just to let me know that James Franco would be attending U of H in the fall of 2012 and Im a very big fan of Franco!!!!this made me very happy cause there is only a few actors that I really love and I do mean love everything they are in even if it sucks!!!and these men cut it in my book...



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and it always gets me excited to hear when one of my favs. is coming to texas!!!This day is a FUCK ALL YOU DEBBIE DOWNERS cause this Bitch is very happy right now!!!and not to mention that from now till 2012 it gives me plenty of time to think thoroughly my plan to stalk,kidnap and do...oh wait I have family who reads this blog!!lets just say I will be a happy camper!!! P.S I am so laughing in a dr.evil pinky in the air laugh!!!!
Sorry about the enormous pics!

Too Afraid To Love You

My gears they grind
More each day
And I feel like
They're gonna grind away

And the city blocks
They drive me wild
They're never ending
Mile after mile

I just don't know what to do
I'm too afraid to love you

It's heaven on earth
In her embrace
Her gentle touch
And her smiling face

I'm just one wishing
That I was a pair
With someone
Oh somewhere

All those sleepless nights
And all those wasted days
I wish loneliness would leave me
But I think it's here to stay
What more can I do
I'm wringing myself dry
And I can't afford to lose
One more teardrop from my eye

Man I really love this fuckin'song!!!!!

Kids

Tomorrow will be an interesting day,my baby Daniel came in and told me that some little boy was pushing him around and wetting his bike(yes you read that right)and this is not the first time either.Well I will be putting that little boy in his place NOONE MESSES WITH MY KIDS,I MEAN NO ONE!!!!!! and with the mouth and attitude I have im sure his parent s will want to talk to me but you know what FUCK IT, I could care less no boy or girl will make my baby cry,I will make sure this neighborhood realizes that if you mess with any of the Ramos Boys 1 you will get your ass beat by them and 2 you will hear from Mrs.Ramos and Mrs.Ramos dont fuckin' play!!!!!!!!
Fuck Im really pissed right!!!!
That is all.

Earth Day

Get out and work on your garden,feel the soil between your fingers and enjoy what the earth has to offer us.Go Green or go home.I will be planting my very own herb garden,yay for me I'm doing my part will you?

Pay Attention

1.) Something students these days should know.
2.) If my Mom were a blogger...
3.) A phone call you won't forget.
4.) A list of ten celebrity DON'TS.
5.) Write a poem about your favorite place to be.


This week Im going for numero 1
Im going to write out to the high school kids!!
Life is fucking hard! simple as that!! stay in school and get an education,it is not cool to be punkin' around the freshman(talking to you seniors)you could really do some major damage!!!!Do Not Skip!!!not even on senior skip day :)Please dont think that getting pregnant is cool,Im sorry to burst your bubble its the HARDEST JOB you will have in your entire life!!!!!!it also wont help you to keep that boyfriend of yours,it'll probably make him wanna leave cause of the responsibility.I f you think doing drugs make s you look badass...Im sorry it DONT,it makes you look like an ASS!Everything gets harder and harder but if your willing to stay in school and try to do your very best then your life may get a little easier,the world is a cold and cruel place and if your not prepared for it, it will eat you alive!!REAL TALK.Your parents work really hard for you to get a diploma that they can put up on the mantel and someone once told me that "when you have kids of your own,you will know why we pushed you to try to be the best") and IT'S ALL TRUE!!!THINK OF WHEN YOUR KIDS ARE IN SCHOOL WOULD YOU WANT THEM TO DO DRUGS,SKIP SCHOOL,GET PREGNANT EARLY,STAY IN AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP,DISRESPECT YOU..WOULD YOU WANT THAT?????
This is all coming from a 25 yr old mother of 4 who didnt graduate high school and boy let me tell you that is the 1 thing I wish I could go back and change.Now that my boys are in school I tell them the very same thing "Do your very best"and I hope one day (not in high school) they will tell their kids the same thing.
STAY THE FUCK IN SCHOOL
DO NOT BULLY ANYONE
DONT DO DRUGS
PAY ATTENTION
LIFE ONLY GETS HARDER
RESPECT YOUR PARENTS
DONT GET PREGNANT(you'll miss out on alot of fun in the college years)
DO YOUR VERY BEST

Im hoping this came out right,if not fuck it and stay in school !!!!!

Blog Love

I just had to reblog this from this girl Here
She writes things that Im sure alot of us could relate too.Thank You for that!!

"Take it for what it is. If it's just a friend you fuck, well then that's that. If it's complicated and he's seeing someone else and your aware of it, then you call the shots and decide if you want to put up with it or not. If he mistreats you verbally or physically, how much more will you put up with? If you’ve fallen for someone else while you’re currently with a person, always go with your second choice. Because if you were truly in love, you would never ever, ever, had your options open and allowed another person in. It’s always about choices, your choice. And the best way to a clean relationship is to be honest. Always. No matter how bad it seems or is, the truth is critical. A commitment should be honored. Not used as "Oh damm you’re committed to her or him?" They make a commitment seem so drastic. It’s a blessing to have a person who is true to you, a man or a woman who is faithful. I just learned so much. And I'm thankful for everything that has happened. Good or bad."

AWESOME FUCKIN' POST !!!

July

I am super excited for the month of july!!!!! Charlie Hunnam in Texas and yes people I will be there to see my man!!!!! I cant wait !!!!! Im gonna have to be on my very best behaivor to convince the MAN to go to this all 3 days, so I have to dust off my halo but first I have to find it ;) This means I gotta go put on my housewife dress and apron and get to cleaning and cooking.
OMG Jax Teller <3 <3 <3
Very happy camper right now !!!!!!!!

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You superstitious? throw salt over your shoulders
Make a wish for the day cuz
Like somebody got a doll of me
Stickin’ needles in my arteries
But I can’t feel it
Sometimes it’s like ‘pardon me, but I got a real big spirit’
I’m fearless…. I’m fearless

If you really knew me, you would know that...

This Week's Prompts

1.) Your 15 minutes of fame.
2.) A rule I broke.
3.) If you really knew me, you would know that...
4.) What battle are you fighting? Write a poem overcoming.
5.) Write about someone who made your childhood bearable.

Im going for #3,here it goes....

*If you really knew me, you would know that...Im a very shy person who trys to please everyone.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I try my very best to be a good mom and wife.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I am terrified of lizards any and all kinds,I hate those things with a passion!!
*If you really knew me, you would know that...Even when everyone is telling me their problems I always put up a smile and tell them everything will be okay,when deep inside my world is crumbling.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I think Im the coolest young hot mom on the block(tootin' my own horn here)
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I have body issues,when I know for a fact that after having 4 kids I still look pretty decent.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...As much as give advice the damn near the whole world I wish someone would do the same for me.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...In front of certain people I have to act a certain way.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...When Im mad or sadall I want is to be left alone to cry.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I have to be the STRONGEST person in my house or everything would come crumbling down.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I really wish my mother and I had a different relationship.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I see the good in everyone even when they show me otherwise.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...Im addicted to the evil Internet himself.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...When unannounced company comes over all I really do is throw everything in my room and spray a shit load of air freshner.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...When Im at my worst all I really need is a freakin' hug.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I love to drink.
*If you really knew me, you would know that...I love who Ive become today.

There I think thats it,and if didnt know me I guess you do now.