What I Am

I kinda wanna let this out....



My name is Carol and yes I do drink alcohol not beer but liquor is my vice,I do smoke(cigarettes) when I'm stressed,I am a stay at home mom,I am married(legally)and not common law,I often say Oh Fuck It alot because I am only human and with a house full of boys,you just gotta say it to stay sane,I am and always be a bitch because of home wrecking bitches.I do curse,I do think I have a very tough life even though looking from the outside in my life looks fucking fabulous,I am the only female in my household,I am a sister,I am a damn good friend who will NOT let you down,I am quiet but beware I will tear your ass a new one if need be,I am in love with the thought of love,I trust too easily,I cry alot but no in public,when I say I love you,I mean it cause I have a big heart,I am the one person you can count on when shit hits the fan,I am the person who will never spill your secrets,I am the one you least expect to steal your heart and Then make you cry,but most of all I AM ME.

What am I .... Myself :)

XOXO

Not This One

Ive been known for having some real crazy dreams some that are sooooo fucking fake that you wouldn't even believe it was a dream and some soo real that made me wake up and cry or left me in shock but the dream I had last night was just UNBELIEVABLE.I woke up and started to cry!!!All I remember was being in a town home of some sort on the second floor,walking in and finding the hubby there with a friend drinking.I was so pissed that I started washing dishes(I do that in real life,when I'm pissed I do chores)well he(hubby)said some smart ass remark and Ii blew up and started talking shit.He comes into the kitchen part of the house and now he's talking shit but I cant hear nothing that he is saying,I turn around and grab a knife that I really have here at home and he says this to me "go ahead, do it" and guess what I did??I stabbed him in the chest...he goes and say something to the friend again cant hear what he is saying and I turn around and start heading towards he door he grabs me and I jump from the second story.He follows and pins me against the fence ....this is the part I couldn't believe (my hands are even shaking right now)I continue to sab him until he falls to the floor and dies.I run to a neighbors house to call his sister,mom,and everbody number that I remember but no one and i mean no one answered.The people ask what is wrong and I tell them and as soon as I could remember there were cops everywhere and as one was about to cuff me I wake up.Holy Shit never have I had a dream like that before,never!!I love the hubby and sometimes I feel like strangling his ass but this dream was just so......I don't know!!! what the fuck why am I dreaming of this??????????I just needed to get this out cause I don't have the guts to tell it to him,which i tell him just about every weird and crazy dream I have but not this one might freak him out a bit!!!

Thank you Blogger for this one!!!!

New Look

I wanted to change the look of the blog so here it goes,hopefully this will last me longer than any others Ive used.I seem to like all that comes with it.I keep looking at it but I cant seem to find nothing wrong with it ,Im assuming that's a good thing right? That is all for now !

XOXO

Happiness

I am very tired and drunk off of Nuvo!!!! Good night,great presents and most of all happy kiddos !!!! Merry Christmas ya'll <3

Goodnight Folks

To You

Just wanna wish all my readers/followers etc..

Be safe and hope you have a great time with family and friends.

Love Always,
Carol

Phoenix

Just because I am a real nice girl,Im gonna send you over to THE PHOENIX RISING He's been such a good boy this year!!! Enjoy !!



XOXO

Friday

Friday comes with 2 things

AND
First things first..
Fuck you to the shitty weather here in Texas now all 6 of us are fucking sick!!
Fuck you to the people who decide they don't need you in their life and yet you do EVERYTHING for them.
Fuck you Lysol and Bleach you guys haven't done shit in here but gets us more sicker.
Fuck you to all and any dumb asses who are just that.
Fuck you JAWBREAKERS,I hate those suckers!!!!
Fuck you to the bitch who again this year will not let us see my step kiddos!!!
Fuck you to that bitches mother,don't be calling my husband either!!

Now go do some serious stalking people!!

Do Something

Today has been the most laziest day of my entire life yet!!! been in bed all day except for now and a little while ago when I was making some flour tortillas for the kids(they're getting better)but I cannot seem to want to do anything????????????????? I have a theory that since the kiddos have been sleeping in my room since they've been sick maybe I'm next to get sick,but the hubby said to me today"Get up,do something anything" and he hands me an envelope and to my surprise it has some cash good amount :) and he continues to tell me "here please get out of here and do something" to any other female I'm sure she would be like "ok don't have to tell me twice and go shopping" but as soon as he left I went back to bed!!!!I just don't have the energy to do NOTHING !but since I'm here typing I guess that's a good sign right,at least I'm out of bed and doing something ").Well I gotta go and start on dinner which today I feel like making some green chile enchiladas!!!yummy!
XOXOXO

So Long Brother

As I was looking at all my facebook bullshit today I realized that my brother was not my friend,so I send him a message asking if he deleted me or what not and his response SHOCKED me !!!!

Well brother you fucked it all up !!! I didn't think that this shit would happen to me and you but you know what fuck you!!! you aint the first or the last family member that has turned his/her back on me!!!!! and if you must know..I'm gonna air your dirty laundry fucker!!!

First off what I told your girl was to find someone better than your ass cause your 17 and don't work,you spend your days smoking and drinking with your soo called friends,you beat the fuck out of the girl and that right there buddy I do not and will not allow because you did it in my fucking house!!!,you know that dad is sick and getting sicker as he ages and you rather cause him harm because the person he calls to see if I know your whereabouts is ME!!!,why do you think I told you as well that you and her were not good for each other at this point in your life??? because all I want is the best for you and her! I wish I had someone telling me at 16/17 to finish school and not to be in an abusive relationship but I didn't and I had to LEARN THE HARD WAY !!!!! but if this is what you want fine,It just hurts me soo to know that I lost you and if you know me right you know that I will not forgive you for this,I was there every time that you called me to pick you up,I was there when mom was trippin,I was there to listen,I WAS THERE FOR YOU !!! and now I will not take another person hurting me for some bull shit but again its your fucking loss.

I wish you the very best in life and I will Always LOVE YOU EVEN WHEN IM MAD AND HURT!!!!!

Your Sister,
Carol

Mr.Sickness

Why must Mr.Sickness be in our home ??? I have 3 kiddos with fevers and the most ugliest cough in the history of the U.S.!!!and the baby just happens to have asthma!WTF!! leave our home you dirty little fuck!!!!I have bombed the hell out of my home with Lysol and bleach and yet nothing seems to be working!As much as my kiddos drive me crazy with all the energy they have I hate and I do mean HATE seeing them sick and just not doing nothing at all but laying all over the house being sick.Not even with all the medicine in the world are they getting any better,oh and not to mention at night...I haven't slept in 2 days!! the youngest has asthma so I'm always scared when he gets sick,just last year he was diagnosed with bronchitis and had his very first asthma attack...SCARED THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME!!!!!!!!I hope my babies get better caused momma needs some sleep!! and I don't want to see them like this anymore!!To you Mr.Sickness I will be after your ass sir!so you better stay the fuck away from here!!!

Love,
Momma

Whips & Chains

Go do some stalking!!!

Random

Today was a very productive day if I say so myself but yet I have nothing to blog about and I fucking want to blog about something.......literally nothing is popping' into this brain of mine but oh well fuck it!!! Right??? I am(was)playing Burn Out with the kiddo but decided to go and drink me some wine,since it's my "relaxing" drink!Another thing I am doing is eating the crust of of the pizza!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! I don't know why but that is the only thing I eat when we get pizza..weird huh??? but that's what makes me me! :) As you can tell I have nothing to write about and that's ok,Christmas is around the corner and I still have alot of shit to bye!!!!Just thinking about it makes me wanna pour another glass!!! but I gotta make it last!!! lol!! Shopping for 4 boys is tough!I have to make sure everyone get a different gift or they will beat the crap out of each other for it,one is a Pro at PS3&Xbox(games are too much but hey some one's gotta buy it!)one wants dragon stuff..any kind of dragon stuff!! Another wants "Aligaytha" things but mostly boots!!I know weird! and the "baby"(3)wants all Handy Manny toys and that is a hard thing to find because I only get toys that don't make any noise,Yes people it will drive me crazy and I will throw the damn thing!!!!!!!Hey I guess I found a topic to blog about! Yay Me !! :) Oh and not to mention the Hubby(a house full of testosterone :(!!)but for him its kinda easy cause I look for tools I can use around the house,I'm pretty handy with power tools!Very proud to say that,I don't mind getting my hands dirty either.As for me this year all I want is that damn ball vacuum cleaner!!!!I swear I will vacuum everything and anything with that sucker!!!!!!!!

Guess that's all folks,
XOXO

Boredom

12:20 am-and I'm fucking bored out of my mind!
I cant seem to get the design of my blog right,I like it then I don't so I change it.I wonder if I'm ever gonna get it right!?!?!?for now I'm gonna leave it like it is and maybe when I look at it tomorrow I'll still like it.I also haven't done none of the weekly shit I usually did before but hell bare with me I think I'm going through a blogging crisis of some sort.I'm fucking watching Conan...that's how bored I am!!!
That is all :)

Ask Yourself

Have a dream, then learn to follow it. When it has been fulfilled look back and ask yourself, was it worth it? Was the price too great? Or has it just left you with a hole in your heart?

Damian

This one is dedicated to my "bonus" son Damian Bernal.

Happy Birthday "Son" I really wish things were different and I would of loved to have you here at home with us~!! but things are not that way and I truly hope that when you get older you come to realize that the people in this home have ALWAYS loved you and your brother very much!!!!! I wish I could call you and ask to see how you are doing but to many people on your side that is crossing the line and I'm only looking for trouble and drama,when in fact I just want to speak to y'all,I miss y'all very much and love when y'all are here! I am very PROUD to call you and your brother my SONS!!!!the kiddos here Miss y'all as well and it hurts me when they ask about y'all,or when they say "they re coming for Christmas right mommy?" it breaks my heart.I know that you "think" everything is all wrong but baby trust me when I say this to you....WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND ONE DAY YOU WILL BE HOME WITH US!!!! I hope you have lots and lots of fun on this day(Dec.6)and know that no matter what we are always with you.

Happy Birthday Damian

Love Always,
Carol & Dad

Juliet

This one is for the one and only..Julie Pulie !!!!!

Happy Birthday Juliet
So many memories with you,my partner in crime!
I love you and wish you the very best!!
Until we get our spiral staircase house...

Love Always,
Aunt Carol/(sister)

Lately

Its been a while,
Everyday that goes by seems that it just might be ok and the thing I hate the most is when I least expect it YOU..seem to be around in music,in vehicles,in certain smells,when I see a smile similar to yours.Even though it puts a big smile on my face,I know its just not right.I miss you and only I know how i can cope with this but i was only left with memories that i will never forget,I'm glad I have them.
Just needed to get that off my chest.

Anyways
I haven't blogged like I just too but DAMN I seem to be very busy now a days even with the kiddos being in school longer????? I know !!!But I guess its a good thing and I'm ok with it.I'm liking the outcome of this change!I love the way I feel when I look around and feel satisfied with what Ive done,entire family seems more happier and I couldn't ask for a better thing in life right now! I wish we were closer to certain family members but this is the reason I have always wanted to be so far away..there is noone around to throw their drama around!!!My next move will be even further but that might just take a few years ,I gotta let the kiddos grow up in one place.I miss everyone who is not here and wish we could be closer but life is a tricky thing you know!!I may be getting off topic so I will stop now before my "ADD" kicks in!!
Love to all my Blogger Friends !!!!

Dreams are illustrations from the book your soul is writing about you.

Leap Year

my very favorite from this movie !!!

May you never steal, lie, or cheat, but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn't live a day without you.

Bittersweet Ending

Today I had to do one of the hardest thing a mother could do,I had to say goodbye to the teachers and staff at Pine Forest Elementary.This post is dedicated to them.

Mrs.P-Thank you everything that you have done for our family,thank you for never giving up on my kiddo,thank you for looking at things through a mothers eye,thank you for taking time from your busy schedule to make sure that my kid was doing good in class,thank you for being the person you are,thank you for the allowing me to feel comfortable when walking through your door whether it was a good day or bad.We will miss you dearly.Thank You :)

Mrs.L-You...are he person who showed me that there is a different way when a parent walks into the office,instead of a getting a "can I help you" I always received a "Hi Carol what can we do for you"and that alone means a whole lot,thank you for all that you do for the school,Thank you!!!!

Mrs.C-words cant describe how you as a teacher made a big impact on us,when we were going through a rough patch you were the reason both kiddo and I looked forward to going to school,Thank you for your support,saying good bye to you in kidergarten was so sad because you were and will always be the teacher who gave us hope during the when darkness was all we saw.Thank You

Mrs.F-Boy did we have some hard times...:) but even with that being said,my kiddo always talks about you.He always says how you did this,you did that and that means that you did one hell of a job teaching him!!Thank you for being so patient with him,thank you for being the kind of teacher that you are,thank you for EVERYTHING.Thank You

Mrs.V-thank you for allowing my child to have his own place in your class,it made us sad to think that we were not going to spend an entire year with you but at least we got half a year.Thank you for caring about him as much as you did,Thank You Mrs.V!! we will miss you !!

When we said our goodbye's today,I couldn't believe how much I'm going to miss you all,Thank you for all that you do.

Ramos Family

Closer

Stranded in this spooky town
Stoplights are swaying and the phone lines are down
This floor is crackling cold, she took my heart, I think she took my soul
With the moon I run far from the carnage of the fiery sun

Driven by the strangle of vein showing no mercy I do it again,
Open up your eye, you keep on crying baby, I?ll bleed you dry
Skies they blink at me, I see a storm bubbling up from the sea

And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer

You shimmy shook my bone leaving me stranded all in love on my own
Do you think of me? Where am I now? Baby where do I sleep?
Feel so good but I'm old, 2000 years of chasing's taking its toll

And it's coming closer.

My Favorite verse:
"leaving me stranded all in love on my own
Do you think of me? Where am I now? Baby where do I sleep?"

Yo quiero saber de ti

Yo quiero saber de ti
Por que ya hace mucho tiempo
De que sucedio el momento
Que me burlara de ti

Yo quiero saber de ti
Por que todavia me acuerdo
De aquel daño tan inmenso
Que te hiciera aquella tarde
Cuando yo te conoci

Yo quiero saber de ti
No vaya a ser que algun dia
Pudiera perder la vida
Y que no te vuelva a ver
No te dejo de querer
Tu debes de comprender
Que kiero volver, volver

Yo quiero saber de ti
Saber como la has pasado
Cuando te habran humillado
Si te han hecho sufrir

Yo quiero saber de ti
Pa´que recordemos juntos
Esos que dices minutos
De hace apenas unos meses
Yo pasará junto a ti

Yo quiero saber de ti
No vaya a ser que algun dia
Pudiera perder la vida
Y que no te vuelva a ver
No te dejo de querer
Tu debes de comprender
Que quiero volverte a ver


Kinda what Im feeling!!

Very Proud To Be His Mother

I just have to say that tonight I am the most happiest and proudest mom ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My baby Daniel received his very first patch that goes on his vest for church.All smiles right now!!!


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COD:Black Ops

We are a COD Family!!!!!!!SUPER DUPER EXCITED about this one,enough said!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday Six

Questions

1)Do you still celebrate your birthday?
2)What's your favorite kind of cake?
3)Craziest thing you've ever done for your birthday?
4)What's your sign?
5)Best present you've ever gotten on your special day?
6)Worst gift?


MY ANSWERS

1)hell the fuck yeah!!!!!since I have 2 kiddos birthday's the same month as I we throw a big ass party!!
2)the one's I make,we never buy cakes.I always make mine filled with LOVE!!!!
3)nothing just yet but Im sure I will have some coming up...
4)motherfuckuckin'LIBRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5)it was last year excatly on my birthday when I was able to go see the one and only Vicente Fernandez in concert!!!!BEST birthday EVER!!!!
6)to this day I have never gotten a bad gift!!!!

Done

it's finally fucking done!!!!!!!go grab my button folks!!!!!!!!!!

This shit makes me soo happy,what a fucking dork !!!!
But I love it!!

WTF moment

Okay well I did something different for the button but every time you click it it directs you too a "Page not found
Sorry, the page you were looking for in the blog Oh,Fuck it. does not exist."but if you click my blog name it takes you directly to my blog!?!?!?!?!?!?WTF.....my head and neck hurt from doing this shit so im leaving it as that!!!FUCK YOU BLOG BUTON MAKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!if anyone knows please,please explaing to this non blog button maker wtf im doing wrong!!!!!!!

Blog Button

I am working out the kinks in this shit,so please bear with me until I figure it out!!!!!!!

OCD

So I was watching a show about people who suffer from OCD and was thinking"Holy cow,how can people do this every day?"Then it slapped me right in the face....I have a mild case of OCD!?!?!?!?!?!?I on the other hand I know why I'm like this,it started in my high school years..9th grade I had a don't give a fuck attitude!so I did drugs,my drug of choice was poppin' pills downers,uppers, and everything in between.I remember one day I skipped school in school????I know sounds crazy but I did it.I always knew people who just would do anything I told them to do or give me anything that I asked for.I was that chick who knew everyone!and most girls HATED me for that,well I decided i wanted to pop around 6 pills in a day and I did and I was pretty much a walking zombie(Good Looking too..)nothing happened and well I went home,got there and left again.I didn't come back until 7pm...(Hardcore,I know)took a shower and was ready to sleep well.........I didn't sleep at all!!!my closet door was open and for some odd reason I swear I thought someone was in there looking at me!!I had to wake my sister up and made me count to me,say every single letter of the alphabet just so I could get a little distracted away from my closet door.I woke up at 6am and I can say I only slept for an hour!Well now every single day of my life since that happened to me I HAVE to make sure every single door in my house is closed or I cant sleep!I check the bathrooms,closets,laundry doors,coat closets just basically anything that has a door to it.I will not let my kids sleep with their door open!!!!Oh absolutely not,the one and only door that is allowed to be open is the door to their room.Its kinda crazy now that I think about it,I didn't sleep last night just cause I was like shit,i do this shit everyday even when we sleep over at someones house.but yeah folks I have a mild case of OCD,I swear too much,yell a whole lot,drink,I'm a little lazy and I do all that with 4 boys and a husband.WOW!

Just thought I let ya'll know...:)

Fawk You Friday

Here I go,
Fawk you to this mean ass headache I woke up with!
Fawk you to anyone who doesnt like me!
Fawk you to this Texas weather..damn it I'm cold!
Fawk you to any person that makes me cry!


That's it!

F.Friday

Rules


-Grab the Button Post it in todays Blog Post
-Follow Me
-No Give aways
-Follow any one who follows You
- If you are a new follower leave a comment so we can return your follow
Thats It!

Music

Well things have been really really quiet since our girl CB left,but since I decided to take a look at my life from the outside in,I have now started thinking that maybe just maybe there really is some shit I could change,because as of this moment I want to.Lets see how long this ships sails!!!I want to DRASTICALLY reduce my alcohol intake,for the sake of my boys(drinking a little less means maybe just drinking at night when they're asleep and not watching)I would not want for them to be alcoholic like their mother and granddad(my dad)I am on Pandora Radio as we write and for some damn reason I decide to tune into my Vicente Fernandez channel........big mistake!!!now I wanna drink,that man there just hits every single note with so much power that damn it when he cries...fuck it I cry too!!!!Ilove that old fart!!!and I have too admit I'm a big Mexican when I drink but I guess I can call myself a red neck girl cause holy shit I love me some fucking Lynard Skynard!!!! I love everything they sing!!!what a combination huh....mexican redneck girl from Texas!!fuck I think I'm off topic but who the fuck cares!!!
That's It! :)

The worst part of life is waiting. The best part of life is having someone worth waiting for.

Sometimes I hate ya'll

Right when I think things are gonna be okay something else hits the fan,why oh why must ya'll love to give me shit about everything that I do!?!?!?!?I dont blame ANYONE for any mistakes that I have made in my 25 years of life.I do not judge any mistakes yall have made because hunny theres alot,all I have ever wanted to for shit to be okay,no drama,no nothing!!but as usual any little thing triggers my almost going okay day!I have never said anything to anyone of the things we've done and just as a I start to think that I can start talking to my own fucking family and star trusting in you,this shit happens.WHY?????? when I fucking need yall the most I cant even talk to you,I have to talk to someone who knows nothing about my background and the shit Ive been though and believe it or not that person's words are very comforting and then I realise how I had a family member that I could talk too just like that!!!! but I dont fucking have that!!!!!I have a mother who says that Im her enemy,a sister who should have my back no matter what but she rather tell our mother of the shit that I apparently say about her,BITCH read though the lines!!!!3 brothers that I dont see or talk too just like when we were smaller!!!You bitches have me crying...........I wish that I didnt have this big ass heart that cares about everyone even when they hurt me!!so that i can just not give a fuck but damn it i do and thats what makes me cry,that i care about the shit you do to me!!!!I wish i could trust,i wish i had that support system from you.It hurts me so much to think that my own family does things to me that hurt me this way.I wish things didnt have to be this way but they are and to both my SISTER AND MOTHER....I wish you the best of luck but forget about me cause if all you do is bring me to tears I dont need you!!!!!!!!!!

If I didnt makes no sense....fuck you its what im feeling right now!!!!!!!!!!!

Patience

I thought i knew what i was supposed to do,but i don't. i've come to realise that all i have to do is wait and hope for the best. why is that so much more easier said then done? i want to be the person i really am and not what others want me to be.i want to do as i please and not worry what others think,say exactly what's on my mind and not care.i don't know what else i'm suppose to be doing ????? but i do know this.......FUCK YOU if you don't like what you see!!!!!!this is me,an i'm trying my best to do as much as i can.you can't change a person unless they change themselves first. “And this bird you can not change” it is what it is . patience is the game i'm playing but how much longer must it be before i find out if i'm winning or if i'm losing ?

My Very First AWARD

OMG,my very first award bitches!!!!!!I don't even know how to act right now!?!?!?!?!? First I would love to thank ALL YOU BITCHES AND HOES for actually reading my shit.No really thank you for following me,makes my day go by much easier.I think there is some shit that goes along with this award hold on let me check.................Ok I'm back,I gotta tell you 7 things about me and give this award to 15 bloggers,lets see who gets it!?!?!?!?!?!?

7 THINGS
1)I am allergic to peanut butter and I love that stuff(but it'll kill me)
2)I am addicted to the Internet(it's the devil,I tell ya.)
3)I am a stay at home momma of 4 boys and I'm only 25!!!
4)I really hate that I always try to see the good in everyone(even when they're asses)
5)I tend to drink alot,even during the week(damn,I have alot of addictions..)
6)Sometimes I really don't give a shit about anyone!!!!!!!
7)I love where I am,who I am and what I have become,because this bitch only knows where Ive been!!!!

Now 15 Bloggers...
Botch..real cool chick!
Gossip..who doesn't love gossip?
The Queen..she's the fucking queen!
The Brat..one bad ass mexican chick!!!
Not Worth Mentioning..kinda my Favorite stalker!!

I cant think of any more but If I do I will be back to link your ass up,don't cry!!

And again thank you EnVii for poppin' my award cherry!!!!!!!!

Weezy..

I lost my mind and still haven't found it.

I got ice in my veins, blood in my eyes, hate in my heart, love in my mind.

I search, but never find. Hurt, but never cry. I work and forever tired.

I am the only fire that can live in the rain.

I have no stress, because I am the best.

Monday Madness

I am BEYOND irritated,pissed,bitchy,assholey etc...today!!Been up since 5am and this day is straight kicking my ass!!!So I am now drinking a big glassful of FUCK IT.

That is all Bitches!!!! :)

Johnnie Taylor - Good Love

Love this song.

Well as some of you might know the one and only CB is leaving us to join the non blogging world.Since this is MY blog this one's for you.

I will miss you hooker,you were the person that knew just what to put on my comments to make my shitty day turn into a laugh fest.I know this Blog thing is simply a gateway for alot of us but girl,you are ONE OF A KIND!There will not be another like you.I will miss your ass like no other,but I am happy that you have decided to leave CB to become ASHLEY,I'm sure she too is one hell of a chick!You are and will always be the one female blogger that i just couldn't wait to see that the hell you had to write about.My favorite post was the little brother one as I too had to go through the same shit.I hope you have the time of your life.You will be missed.

Love Always,
Sinful

Saturday Six

The Rules:


1.) You MUST take our amazing Saturday Six button and place it in your Saturday Six post!
2.) You MUST link back to ALL the hosts blogs in your Saturday Six post! Not just to my blog, or just to Ashlee's & not even just to Ange's Blog -- You have to link to ALL of the hosts blogs in the post, it's just good manners!
3.) You MUST link up an ACTUAL Saturday Six post where you are actually participating in The Saturday Six. So please do NOT link up your giveaways or just link up your blog when you're not going to actually participate! Again, it's just good manners!
4.) You MUST plat the game correctly. That's the whole point, we all wanna see who you would pick to get freaky with, who you would pick to tie the knot with and who you would choose to kick the bucket. It's no fun if you say kill them all, kill two of them, and don't get nasty with or marry anyone.
This weeks questions are:


1. Worst movie ever made..in your opinion?

I really cant think of one but I think it would be Titanic,Im probab
ly getting chewed out by ALL of you right now but what the hell I dont care!


2. A stranger you encounter has toilet paper hanging from their pants..or spinach in their teeth...insert any embarrassing item here..Do you tell them?

I KNOW that I should say something but being me I probably wouldnt.Karma will one day kick my ass for it,this I know!


3. Tell us ONE thing that annoys you. Yes, just one.

When there is alot of dishes in the sink,not because I dont want to do them but because I hate when they pile up.Annoys the hell out of me!!


4. What's your biggest beef about the opposite sex in general? (Don't be skurred, we won't rat you out.)

Theyre men!!simple as that!They get away with way too much.


5. Would you donate your eggs/sperm to an infertile couple?

Yes,if I got paid for it!My babies are ADORABLE!



6. What's the last book you read?

The Notebook,for like the millionth time but it is my favorite!!!

B.S.F

You bitches love PURPLE MONKEY BALLS on Friday's.
On another note..I just want to say THANK YOU to all my followers,you hookers make me sooo happy!!!My H looks at me all funny when I get excited over new followers!I'm new to the blogging world but I have to say I FUCKING LOVE IT!!I don't think I can stop now.Love ya Sluts!

All Smiles

You were in my dreams last night,it has left a smile on my face.Even if only in my dreams.

Inviting My Mother

My writing prompt for this week is....3.) Why I'm not inviting my mother to read my blog...

Well first off I was BLESSED to have a Mother and a Momma.My mother is what I would call....a total witch(switch the first letter)From the get go it's a hate/hate relationship.I might just post that some other day.

My reason for me not inviting my mother to read my blog or to anything I do is
1)I have never been the"GOOD"child that she wants.
2)She STILL hasn't approved H and we have been together since 14/15.
3)Just like she did with us,she has her favorite in my kiddos(1 only).
4)I know you only have 1 mother but DAMN lady act like one.

And my favorite one..
5)I AM A DADDY'S GIRL!!!!!!!!

From The Bottom Of My Heart

I am going to blog about the miners in Chile because I have watched this from the very beginning up until the last 33rd miner was out.I have also been crying my ass off like a little bitch even when I know that every single man is coming out the exact same way.I am an emotional wreck!I am truly AMAZED at the power one country has for it's people and the will to NEVER give up.I do not care that some of the men were cheating all that matters is that they are safe and that they are with their families.I could just imagine how much everyone was hurting,how they were wondering if they were ever gonna see their families again.I do not know what the hell I would of been doing or even thinking if that were me.!.!.!What I do know is that God will FOREVER bless those men and their family for everything that they have endured.And from the bottom of my heart my love and prayers go out to every single man and their families that have went through this!

LOVE from your AMERICAN FRIENDS.

For You Erik

You know why I'm posting this.

This past Saturday I decided to throw a party,since my kids and I all have birthdays in October,and one on the very last day of September.Well the party was fucking AWESOME!!!We had family and friends over and my very close friends from when back when..Bacardi,Jack Daniels,Hennesy and that blue bitch Hypnotiq.So you know it was banging!!!We had the DJ system and all!Well as the night progresses I'm feeling fantastic and the mexican in me comes out.There is a spanish song playing and not only do I wanna dance to it but I wanna dance with my little brother.(I'm not a dancer..but I have some really cool skills!!!)If your mexican you'll know what Im talking about when you hear that song of when everybody and they momma get on the dance floor to stomp the ground,well that's the fucking song I wanted to dance too(I was drunk)I know!!!!I shout out to him and say "let's dance"he just looks at me and says NOTHING(I felt like an ass)and I realize he 's not drinking!?!?!?!?(he's a drinker)Then it all clicks...all that weird/sad bullshit on facebook.Then he spills the beans.

He says that his girl(ex-now)told him this"I don't want you to be mad but I want some space/I need a break(I'm trying my best to remember I did say I was drunk)and that all he said was "that's cool"as simple as that,nothing else.My little brother was heart broken!!!

This is for the little girl who did this-WTF is wrong with you?Why would you do this to him?He is one hell of a guy!!I will make sure that he hates you by the end of this post,you skanky little girl.And to think I actually wanted to meet you and bring you to my house.Don't under estimate the power behind this short ass stay at home mom of 4 kids!!!I am the oldest of 5 and trust me I have done this before.NO ONE MESSES WITH MY SIBLINGS!!!!

My brother is the life of the party,Freestyle King some may say,never a party pooper,always laughing and he was not there.What was there was depressed rock music listening,not talking brother.Fuck that bitch!You can do better,she ain't shit!!!!!!Don't ever let a Bitch bring you down!I love you and keep doing you playa!!!!

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Lastnight I was FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKEEEDDDD UP!!!!!! still a little hung over!Later Bitches!

Bitch I'm Famous

YOU MADE MY FUCKING DAY!!!!I was just gonna spend my friday sleeping all damn day but I'm not.You Rock Copyboy!!!!Go check him out.

It Didn't Burn Down

Today was the start of a new journey for my kiddos,they went to church!Awana is the program they are attending and it's from 6:30-8pm.WooHoo some time alone with the H!!!Well I enrolled 3 out of 4 cause Im just not yet ready to be left alone with no babies!!I got some things done around the casa and I was kindof thinking about the little fuckers(I know sounds funny)Well I go to pick them up and My golly they are super stoked about their "new" classes!!They said that they would want to go back next week!!Yes,that's excatly what I wanted.Any little free time away from them is good especially when they are at church!Now to my title,well lets just say that this church passed because having 4 members of this family under their roof....that place might of exploded!!!!!!That is all.DUECE.

My.Mommy.Moment

Today.I.was.thinking.about.my.other.babies.I.haven't.seen.them.for.awhile.and.it.sucks.balls!!!I.wish.I.could.call.them.and.ask.how.they.are.doing.but.I.cant.since.you'll.throw.the.biggest.bitchfit.ever!!I.know.what.you.wish.to.expect.from.me.and.I'm.sorry.to.burst.your.bubble.that.person.is.not.me.The.only.people.you.are.hurting.are.your.kids!instead.of.you.telling.them.go.visit.your.dad.or.even.calling.to.see.if.we.can.pick.them.up.instead.of.sending.a.childish.text.saying"it's.been.2.months.since.you've.seen.them"Grow.up!anyways.I.miss.my.bonus.kids.and.I.wish.they.were.here.every.single.weekend.with.us!This.is.for.you.boys-We.LOVE.you,no.matter.what.anyone.tells.you,we.miss.you.and.we.are.ALWAYS.thinking.about.ya'll!One.day.when.you.guys.are.older.you.will.know.that.we.were.always.here.for.you!!!!We.Love.You.

Blogaholics Anonymous

Hi my name is Carol,and Im addicted to blogging.

Thoughts

Bitch,Whore,Slut,Trick,Waste of female,Dirty,Skank,just a few words that describe you!!!!

Fall

we finally got to exprience what it feels like to have the fall weather here in Houston,we usally get 2 options hot and cold but these last couple of days it actually feels like fall.I love this type of weather!!!

this week on SOA

FUCK,FUCK,FUCK,FUCK,FUCK,SHIT,SHIT,SHIT,WTF I fucking missed it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I missed it!!I wanna cry ...yeah right (no really)I have never missed an episode and I mean never.Been a true fan since season one!I LOVE YOU JAX TELLER until next week baby I'll get to see you again.

Monday.Madness

So.today.my.damn.day.is.not.going.to.fucking.good.H.decided.to.take.the.(MY)laptop.to.work,well.just.my.luck.the.desktop.is.fucked.up!!meaning.that.my.fucking.space.bar.has.been.shot.to.hell.that's.why.i'm.using.the.period.marks!!!!You.bitches.better.stop.laughing.so.since.i.cant."write".the.way.i.want.i.went.shopping.and.came.home.with.a.bunch.of.makeup.2lipsticks,compact,liners.both.lip.and.eye,foundation,just.incase.i.have.to.put.on.my"this.is.how.i.look.everyday"makeup.and.ofcourse.also.bought.bodysoap,wash,shampoo,kids.shampoo,toothpaste,kids.toothpaste...in.other.words.i.went.to.spend.a.shit.load.of.money!!!hahahahahaha.WELL.THAT'S.IT.BITCHES!!!UNTIL.LATER!!STAY.SKANKISH!

Please Explain

why in the fuck didn't anybody tell me this thing called motherhood was gonna be so damn unfair?I have cleaned the entire fucking house(cause I fucking felt like it for once)and every single room is clean,still doing laundry and these fuckers decide that my floor is a goddamn slip in slide???????Why oh why do kids do this to a clean ass house?I bet your fucking ass that when H gets home it is not gonna look and smell the way it does now.I love them to death but hell..help your momma out for fuck's sake.I am literally so bored that I have nothing to do,because I have did it all already!I wonder how mothers that work see us stay at home QUEENS!?!?!? Do they think that all we do is blog/surf the web or just plain blow off our husbands money?Deep down inside I think they WISHED they had a husband who worked his tail off so that you could stay at home and be with the kiddos.I know for a fact alot of shall we call them "ladies" think we don't do much but frankly...we are the ones who are here for our kids,we help out with homework,we pretend to be a happy go lucky mom for the goddamn pta,our kids know that when they come home we will be there and not some stranger or grandma or aunt,I know that when our kids grow up they will remember ALL the bullshit they put us through and say "she was always there for me".This is Not a diss at any mother that has to work but I just wonder what your take is on us.Just like I wonder how you can work all day and not think about what your kids are doing or even if you know what they are doing.Mothers come in all shapes and forms and everyone raises their children differently but this is My opnion on things and FUCKING FORGIVE me if I hurts your feelings.Thats why this is MY blog and I can blog about whatever the fuck I want!!
LOVE YA BITCHES!!

B.S Friday

Well surprisingly this week was fucking awesome!Noone fucked with me or nothing,kiddos behaved like normal human beings,that was until today Fucking Friday..my youngest monster was the only one awake and "watching" cartoons while I while "stalking" some of yall!!!I ofcourse am having a blast reading ya'lls stories when..........monster comes in and says this"mommy,me hungry" so I'm like okay hold on,then I get this stench of garlic all of a sudden,I ask him to give me his hands..HOLLY SHIT they stink like garlic(you see what yall hookers do)I run into my kitchen and.....FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he ate 2 big ass cloves/whole garlic.My whole entire fucking morning was trying to make the smell of garlic dissappear before H came for lunch.But maybe just maybe the smell of garlic will keep away that blood sucking bitch vampire that loves stalking me!hahahahahaha
That is all Bitches

Dreams

Oh shit, she passed me on the boulevard

Ay, tell me is it stalking if I follow her all the way home without her knowing

Nah, nigga, I’m just curious where she stay at

Besides when I’m with her, this gon’ be the spot we lay at

And maybe I’ll just drive by occasionally

And if one day I happen to see her outside, she wave at me,

Imagine what she’ll say to me, this ain’t no time to be afraid no more

It’s time for bravery

No matter if my homies think I’m crazy,



Okay, you say you got a man, I mean, I definitely understand,

I’m happy for you, really am, I couldn’t of been the only fan

In the world Of a girl like you

I mean, you’re beautiful, and I’m sure he’s a very nice dude

It ain’t no biggie, well I’m sure that I’m gon’ see you around the city

Only thing I ask if shit don’t work out for y’all, then don’t forget me

And don’t act like a stranger when you see me on the scene

I Fuckin' love this song!!!!!!

SOA

One word this week...
AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nyquil

The stuffy, sneezy, why-the-hell-is-the-room-spinning medicine.

I HATE being sick !!!

Really

You punk bitch poepoe,how in the hell do you expect to not swerve around a gotdamn car?????Do you want me to hit it?If your gonna pull me over atleast come up to my window not my back one.I know how to drive and I hope you never again pull anyone over!Here's the fun part...You punk bitch lawman,you racist motherfucker did your momma teach you any manners..you should never snatch shit away from ladies.I didn't ask for you to feel pity for me..I was just telling you the truth.Now I know that for cunts like you I will lie and laugh in your face and say FUCK YOU(in my head)
That is all.

Stalkerville

Ok well since now I'm the one being STALKED(I JUST LOVE HOW YOU MAKE ME YOUR 1st PRIORITY)by the Wicked Witch.You will get your own post hunny.

Why must you keep checking in on my life?Is that how bad your life is treating you that you have to TRY to cause problems in my MARRIAGE(I know that hurts)Well sweety,it's not!My HUSBAND knows excatly what I blog about and hunny you're not that important that I would spend my days writting about you(just this exception,cause you asked for it)I understand that your still in love with my HUSBAND but really...don't waste your time trying to pick a fight.I personally don't know you and don't wanna know you,your kids on the other hand are the ones that I care about.They were here before my kids came along and for that reason I LOVE THEM!!!!I'm sure you wished I was a bad step mom but I'm not and you should be glad that I'm not!!Childern are never at fault for the mistakes their parent's make.I ask myself "Why must she do this"but then I remember that you wish you were in my shoes.There will never be a female that could last even 5 minutes in my shoes..here's why..
I stay at home allday,I don't work,I clean,I cook,I don't have anyone to just leave my kids with so I can work and go to school,I put up with alot of fighting from the kids,I do 6 loads of laundry every week sometimes more,I get chewed out when shit don't go right,My son has ADHD and takes no medication for it,My kid has kidney problems,My kid has anger issues and he's only 4,I have family members that don't help my family and I out,I don't have anyone I can just pick up the phone and talk about my problems..that's why I write,My husband is jealous and demanding(love the fucker though)I do drink alot of wine just so I can relax a little since Im not in the clubs,I am ME.My lifestyle some would say it's hard.For a fact I know NOONE could do what I do!!!!!!

Thank You for STALKING me.......makes me happy to know I'm that important to someone.

Fuck,Marry,Kill

How to play Fuck, Marry, Kill:


We give you three famous names.
You then pick which one you would fuck, which one you would marry and which one you would kill!

1)Dane Cook, George Lopez & Fred Durst
2)Jessica Simpson, Angelina Jolie & Megan Fox
3)Kyle Busch, Charlie Hunnam (Jax-Teller Sons of Anarchy), Alexander Skarsgård (Eric- True Blood)
4)Scarlet Johanson, Jennifer Love Hewitt, Anna Paquin (Sookie- True Blood)
5)Nicki Minaj, Selma Hayek, Gwen Stefani
6)T.I., Marilyn Manson, Dax Riggs


Ok Hookers here's my list...
Very simple,Kill every single person on this list except for Mr.Charlie Hunnam.
Him I will fuck and marry,that simple.

Vote

GO VOTE FOR ME !!!
or i'll fucking kill you..just kidding.

WTF..

THIS IS MY FIRST TIME,DON'T KILL ME FOR FUCK'S SAKE





Since the hubby can't vent out in the open(he gets stalked)here it is from my point of view.
Has anyone ever heard someone blame their problems on you because of your problems??Probably makes no sense and that's fucking right IT MAKES NO SENSE AT AT ALL,YOU STUPID DUMB ASS PEOPLE.Why in the hell would you do that?Don't be mad that your old ass cant do your job properly,don't hate that there is someone younger than you working with you and KNOWS more than you do,why do you hate a man who stepped down from his position and raise to let you get your job back(you should be grateful for that)why do you try to sabotage his work,why do you think he works his ass off...for his FAMILY,just cause you don't have a supporting wife and kids loving you unconditionally,does that give you a right to be hateful towards others who do have that.Now here is your part from me personally....you stupid fuck,lazy no good cunt bitch Salvadorian(NO OFFENSE,to who reads this,this is just for him).

To the other lazy fuck..do your fucking job!!I still don't believe that after seeing a video of you asleep at work you are still there.You perverted fat fuck.Go back to where the fuck you came from!!!

To the women there..STAY THE FUCK OUT OF OUR HOME LIFE!!!!!!!!!! You don't hear me telling the entire world on how your married and fucking around,how you have a bad reputation for being a WHORE,how all you do is think of ways to fuck people over,how y'all are all a bunch of NASTY,TRASHY,GOSSIPPING SLUTS!!!!!!!Everyone has problems and there is not no person I know that can say they don't.(and if y'all don't..Bitch quit lying)Fuck you,Fuck you,Fuck you,Your cool,Fuck you I'm out!!!!!!!!!!

To the "cool"one..thank you for all your help,it has and does mean alot to us but wake the fuck up and look around you.You work with a bunch of dumb fucks who don't give a fuck about nothing but themselves.

I think I have covered everything and hopes that work gets better for my H.I love you and hang in there...THE BEST REVENGE IS SUCCESS.

SOA 2

I'm a little late on posting this one but Fuck I do have shit to do!

For this one it was umm..ok,not so much drama or action but who gives a fuck it's SOA.Gemma is a dad's who has alzimers,Tig is also there and like the Dog he is starts fucking around with the help.Tara is being a desperate bitch(only cause Jax told her about us)Jax just got out of jail.That stupid irish dude has the baby in belfast,he thinks gemma killed his boy(last season..You should of watched)when in fact atf bitch killed him and framed gemma.Clues=blah,blah,blah.Irish dudes kill of kidnapper,baby is safe,gemma's dad shoots tig,jax thinks kid is in canada,stupid tara tries to help gemma and.....there it's over.Stay tuned for next week.This is the best I can do with recapping the episode,if you like it..Hell yeah!!!If not.. fucking watch it for fuck's sake!!!!!!!

Whaaaatttt...

I am completely bored out of my mind,most of the cleaning is done,kiddos fed,hubby fed and I am sitting here watching cartoons..that have no point to them.I have no more books to read(some I've read more than twice)..this is currently what I am hearing when the kids talk....blah,blah,blah,blah,blah,blah...

WTH is going on here I think I'm, tired of surfing the web....
JUST KIDDING, I LOVE YOU INTERNET!!!!! funny right???
well I guess that's it.

Blah,Blah
Simply Sarali

SOA..season 3

The new season of Sons of Anarchy started today.It was fucking phenomenal,it started with my favorite opening line..."Previously on Sons of Anarchy"in this soft yet very manly voice.They recapped on everything that happened in season 2.Gemma was framed for murder by that bitch from the FBI,baby Abel was kidnapped by the Irish and a whole lotta other shit.This was a very compelling 1st episode,lots of action and a little bit of crying.I am hoping that they didn't kill Deputy Hale,I totally freaked because I didn't remember that Gemma didn't know about baby Abel being kidnapped.Jax is so depressed that its fucking HOTT!!!! Overall the show is fucking fantastic,one of the bestest show ever made.In my loudest yell....I FUCKING LOVE SONS OF ANARCHY!!!!!! Kurt Sutter is a genius.

Happy Go Lucky...Yeah Right

Yesterday was supposed to be a very happy go lucky day.It was the hubby's birthday and we had some company over,well it went on to become a night of speaking of the Evil one(sister-in-law) and chasing kiddos around the house to fall asleep for school.Speaking of the Evil one lasted 45 minutes and then we finally blew out the candles.As everyone was leaving I run after the kiddos(they're terrified of me)and I slip on some water by the entry to the hallway....I get a right away bruise and I hit my toes on the corner of the very pointy base board.I'm laughing now cause I feel like an ass for falling down but my big toe hurts like hell !!!!It's the kind of hurt that you laugh cause it hurts so bad,I end up laughing/crying as everyone is leaving.Now I think I broke my big toe,it's purple and swollen and it hurts like hell.I am not the type to go to the ER for any thing but this shit really hurts and I cant walk.I try to limp around but still cant!Even when I lay down in bed I am in pain.I would post a picture but frankly I don't want the world looking at my toes!!!I wish I had some pain medication to take and forget about it but I don't and I'm stuck with 2 whining boys who are driving me crazy right now.I gotta go they at it again.

Simply Sarali

My Babies

I have seen plenty of blogs with lots of pictures in them and I said to my self .."I need to do that too"

My Babies...

Daniel,my first born.He is the one who suffers from ADHD and it's all caused by his brothers'.He is very energetic and he will tell you like it is.He is a COD addict(call of duty),he loves unconditionally no matter what.He will always be my baby even if he says"Im a big boy now"

Joshua Jay,my he almost didnt make it miracle baby.He too is from the month of october and he came home from the hospital before christmas.Thank you Lord for this wonderful gift of a child,he is very loving and always wants you to know he loves you.He is the quiet one in the family..but they say "watch out fore the quiet ones"very true!!!Dont ever piss of Josh.Very timid but sweet.Gotta love Josh!!!!

Phillip..he is the splitting image of daddy.He has a temper like no other,he has and needs to get it his way because if he doesnt you will hear a lion's roar and "I hate you" to follow the roar.He tends to be very clumsy,always bumping into tings and falling.He also is "KING" of this jungle but this king is always fighting for his territory with Mr.Otis.

My baby Otis..he is the most sweetest boy in the world !! He loves his momma dearly and noone seems to understand him but me.He was born a day before my birthday..thats alone makes me love him like no other.He also seem to rule everything hat goes on in this house and him and daddy are always butting heads.I hope you will forever stay a momma's boy!!! I love you Otis.

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My childhood neighborhood.

This week I chose writing prompt 1.) Your childhood neighborhood.

Cimarron is the name of my childhood neighborhood,we lived there since I was 5 yrs old.
It was a very nice and quiet place to live,no bad neighbors,nothing out of the ordinary just
a typical small community.Every one was able to be outside,everyone knew each other,all
was picture perfect.I remember one neighbor the most Mr.Gandy our local tv repair man
he was the best he gave us a microwave that up until last year gave up on my mom.That's
fairly about 9 years that thing stayed with us ,he fixed all our tv's when hey would go out.
He was a really nice and handy neighbor to have,plus he  was good friends with my dad.
Where ever you are Mr.Gandy...you were awesome ! My other favorite was Miss Andrea
she is a very sweet lady,  always watching over us and I was really good friends with her
grandkids.I loved living there at the time and I have alot of memories that my sister and
brothers left there. One of my favorite was when my sister and I thought it was a good
idea to ride my bike while she was holding on to the back of my bike while she was riding
her roller blades. At the time we really didn't know that trying to roller blade on gravel was
a very bad idea that would leave you knee scars!!!!! Good times..lol ! But now that I go visit
my mother.....the once quiet family friendly Cimarron is now filled with a bunch of little wannabes
gangster boys that think is cool to have your pants below your ass and wear a big ass white t shirt.
All you hear is nothing but loud music,parties every where and I'm glad to say I'm very far away
from was once known as my neighborhood.I see it now and would not want my babies any where
near there. But as I grow older I'm glad it left me with good memories and I can look back and
talk to my kiddos about the things we did there.Goodbye Cimmarron
Simlpy Sarali

1st Day Of School

Today is the 1st day of school for my babies.

Joshua is going to kindergarten and Daniel is in 2nd grade.My boys are in the same school building this year!!! That means I can finally buy a yearbook and be able to see both my babies. I miss them already but the house is enjoying some much needed silence! No one is fighting over the blankets,which that is awesome! I was able to watch them get on the same bus and sit together.That made me a little nervous only because riding the school bus is a big thing in our household, it means that you no longer are little kids but BIG BOYS who ride the bus in the morning.I can not wait until the other 2 go to school,I will be able to have no one asking me for things when all I wanna do is sleep.I hope my "babies" are doing ok and I wish them the best!!Happy 1st Day of School to everyone,kiddos and teachers!!!

Simply Sarali

F**k You Friday's(8/20/2010)

This is how I'm going to do things on Friday's,every once in a while at the end of the "working" week there are things that piss me the hell off and friday will be my F**k You Friday,starting today.

Monday-well the name says it all,there were a bunch of fighting and crying from everyone!I also found the tea mix all over my kitchen floor.

Tuesday-was a little better but still had alot of everything involved.

Wednesday-we received a text and call from the .....Wicked Witch from the West,Ms.Baby Momma,letting us know she had a file against her from the kiddos school,and that was it.No more info was explained or given but a text"I will handle this,it's my problem"NO BITCH...it's ours as well we do have every right to know on whats going on with the kids!(that'll be another post)

Thursday-we go to meet with the caseworker and to our surprise,it seemed that she didn't give a hoot!!??Lady the kiddos had bruises and you don't care?WTF

Friday-well at least it's friday and nothing major has happened so that is always good news,we'll see how the day turns out!

Finally Fuck you Mon,Tues,Weds,Thurs!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Mommy..

Let's See if this works..

Dear Mommy,
I wish you could stop yelling at us for every little thing we do.We would like for you to be more understanding on why we dont do our chores,on when we miss the toilet in the mornings,on how we drop most or all the food on the kitchen floor,and on how we tend to beat eachother up constantly!!We think that daddy works too much and needs to be home more,we think that you could do more around the house..you have chores too(I had to put that one in for myself)but most of all we LOVE that you do our chores,that you clean our not so pleasent smelling bathroom,that we eat all three meals,that you help us with our homework,that you clean the area where we always seem to forget,we love the fact that daddy works so we can have an X-Box 360,a PSP,a Playstation3,a nintendo DS and a tv in our room.We appreciate all and everything that you do for us.
Love Always,
The Ramos Boys(Daniel,Joshua,Phillip,Otis)

Now if I ever get a letter like that from my boys..that would be one hell of a surprise and I would frame that thing!!!but my babies are 7,6,4,3 so for now all I get is the "mommy he hit me,mommy im hungry,mommy he stinks,mommy i want this(every toy that appears on tv)mommy can we go to the groceries for yogurt"All I can say is YES to everything.

Simply Sarali

Staind Fade

I just needed someone to talk to


You were just too busy with yourself

You were never there for me to

Express how I felt

I just stuffed it down

Now I'm older and I feel like

I could let some of this anger fade

But it seems the surface

I am scratching

Is the bed that I have made

 
So where were you


When all this I was going through

You never took the time to ask me

Just what you could do

 
 
This is one of my favorite songs from Staind,it has alot of meaning and the words are as if they were spoken straight from my heart.

Forgiveness

What would I ask forgiveness from/for?Wow I think that list will be too long but let me reflect on my wrongs.First and foremost I want to ask my mother for forgiveness because she put up with alot of my crap!!! I do mean ALOT,my husband because I know at times I get very bitchy..Ok let me do it this way...I'm sorry for being a challenging daughter,I'm sorry for getting you upset when you needed me,I'm sorry for being a "mean mommy",I'm sorry if I ever hurt your feelings,I'm sorry I helped in you making bad decisions,I'm sorry for all the wrong Ive caused in your life.I ask for forgiveness from my father, mother,husband,kids,in laws and most of all I ask if I can learn to forgive myself for doing everything that I  have done in my 24 years of life.I know there will be more mistakes to be made but only then when you make those mistakes will you be able to reflect on this and ask if you or anyone can really get forgiven for your doings.I wish I had more contact with family members that have passed away ....I would say to them I'm sorry for not being there,I'm sorry that I didn't get to say you I love you, and I would hope to get their forgiveness because those were the ones who will always be the ones who cared unconditionally. I hope I did this one right,I'm new to this Blogger world but I'm hopping to be able to express myself and find peace and happiness in my writings.
Love
Simply Sarali

Outside

I'm letting the kiddos blow off some of the energy...cause they're driving me nuts!I wonder what is the fascination with the great outdoors?Boys tend to get down and dirty,riding bikes and just being boys.I sit out here and its HOT!!!I must say I'm enjoying this little bit of peacefulness if you can call it that.With my minutes counting down until I have to go inside and be the Domestic Goddess that I am.(haha!)showering the kids is more like washing WILD BEAST,and then all the clothes that end up piled up on the floor is ridiculous.I know or at least hope that there are mommas out there that understand where I'm coming from.How do you do it? is a questions that's is asked from everyone I encounter,and I must say I don't know.I was blessed with a WHOLE LOT of Patience(Thank you Jesus for that)cause who knows how crazy I would be if I didn't have it.At times it gets rough but I learn to just go with the punches and ride out motherhood the best way I can.My bonus kids(step)keep saying it's boring but my kiddos are having a blast,they truly are my WILD BEAST(maybe that's why I love the book Where the wild things are)they live here with me!I am happy when my kids are happy and if that means sweating my ass off outside...well guess what that's where you'll find me.I love my kiddos and my hubby so as I walk inside my castle that is what I will be thinking about.
Love,
Simply Sarali

A Long Drive

Where would I go?I think I would just grab my stuff and go minus the husband and kids!From Texas to where ever highway 59 north takes me..but with my bad sense of directions who knows where I would end and how long it would take to get there.I know I would stop at every little shop I could get too and simply buy something or just ask for directions..to where I don't know?In the mist of all that driving of course I would have plenty of time to talk to my "inner"mommy and ask "What can I do to be a better mom?"What to do to be a better wife,and most of all what are the things that I have to change so that my boys will grow up remembering the mom who did and will continue to do everything for them.As I have this window of maybe 10 minutes to my self I'm, reflecting on those same questions,Are my kids proud of the momma they have,is my hard working husband tired of coming home to a grouchy and bitchy wife,am I setting good examples for my boys,will they grow up to be kind loving GENTEL MEN?My long drive would probably be for the best and to my return...Oh My Goodness would everyone be surprised!Until I take that long drive I will continue to be the neighbor with a bunch of kids,a bitchy wife,a mean mommy,a shy girl who fears of what others think,a friend to all but an enemy you would hate to have,and most of all I will be ME!!

Boys..

Here I go trying this blog thing out,what can I say but "Boy is my house filled with testosterone" 6 boys plus a  husband under our roof is least to say CRAZY..and I ask myself what would it be like if I had a little girl running around here?I don't do hair,I wear mine in a bun all the time.Would I know where to find a barbieand all her accessories?Would I know what kind of clothes to get her?Well all I know is Call of Duty,Ben10,Transformers,Hot Wheels,Basketball shoes,and I have to say I LOVE EVERY MOMENT OF IT !!Boys are much easier to take care of and they LOVE their Momma!!They tend to get rough and tough sometimes and that's when mommy goes to her room for some quiet time because if I don't....I WILL GET HURT!My boys are the sweetest boys on this earth and I wouldn't change them for NOTHING,not even a precious little girl who will always be a "Daddy's Princess",and when she is grown...well I'll just leave it at
that.I am and will always be "Mommy"to my little boogers.I am proud to say I was Blessed with4wonderful,loving kiddos,2 Bonus babies that I love as if they were my own,and 1 wonderful husband who would and will do anything to keep us happy.Our Chaos comes with Love.

LIFE..

What does the word LIFE mean in your opinion?
Is it for us to take advantage of it and do as we please,or is it that we should treasure what life has given to us?Many people abuse life that it understandable why they must suffer and endure so much pain.Do we choose to do good or do we choose to do nothing but the bad?In that case what is the bad...lying,cheating,stealing this list can go on and on.There is one person who has every right to choose for us and of course that is THE MAN UPSTAIRS!!!!!He can give and take within seconds,when you look back at your life what is your most fond memory or your least?Will it be the moments that you CAN remember or will it be the moments of sadness and solitude?My most happiest would have to be when my life was changed and I was called mommy! My saddest and most hurtful was when I was the one to chose between giving or taking a life,and I have my blessing here with me everyday telling me "I LOVE YOU MOMMY,DID YOU HEAR ME".With every decision you make in life there is and will always be a consequence to it and that is enough for everyone to look forward to what Life has to offer.

Is it ever too early

2pm -drinking wine and doing some much needed relaxation.I ask myself "Is it ever too early to drink wine?"Not to mention really good and cheap wine,which I have to say it has a sweet taste to it which is my frist.While my adhd is playing his psp the other 3 are watching tv and arew up to no good but by me drinking this it will allow me to let them run wild.... but in a few I will be ready to clean the mess they have made like a Happy Housewifethat I am.So anyway back to my wine ...it's AWESOME to be able to have a little distraction durring the week so that I may be able to stay Normal,whatever that maybe????

What do you want...

On a lighter note,yesterday I went to an interview for a grocery chain that Im not even gonna name.They let us know that by 5pm today if you receive a phone call your going to your second interview,if you don't ..keep looking for another job.I did not get a call back...
What more do you want from a stay at home mom??Did my drawing skills not do it for you?? Maybe it's that the world wants me to stay in a house where all I hear is "wheres the toilet paper","MOOOOOOOM he has my cup or "he keeps following me"Soooooo I will be staying here with the ones that tell me "I love you",and make my day by letting me know that Im the bestest mom in the whole wide world!!!!!

Why..

Why is it that when you lose someone that you haven't had contact with in such a long time ,that it hurts so much.? I currently lost my uncle and the pain is un explainable...I miss him so much and I would do anything to have him back or even too have him back just enough for me to be able to see him and say Hello,Goodbye and I love you all at the same time. Its hard for me because I have so many fond memories of him and while I want to curl up and cry till I cant anymore,its this image that I'm scared for my kids to see me in.I have to be strong when inside I feel soo sad.I don't even know what I'm doing right now but I need to let this out and this is the only thing that came to mind.I hope we meet again someday but until then...I love you and I want you to know that you will always be part of me because you are my uncle and I miss you soooo much and I pray you guide me through the life I have ahead of me. Te extrano mucho Tio Dikis!!!
Con Mucho Amor,
tu sobrina Carol Hernandez