Watery Eyes

For once in my fucked up life I wanna stop fucking crying over people who don't deserve my tears. This pain I feel is very strong and it's very damaging. I trusted you and gave you pretty much my life. Your betrayal is something I will never forgive you for. The boys and I put you on a fucking pedestal and all you did was hurt us. You're the worst of them all. Fuck you for everything you did to us. You don't deserve our love. You don't even deserve to be around us.

Rose Colored Lenses

I love you. I really do but things will Never be the same. Not only did I live a fucking lie thinking that the man I loved so much could change his ways. I had to deal with not only one but two females while we were together and under the same roof. One Bitch didn't care that she was the other woman,she was actually proud. The other broad tried to play the I would never do that.card with me. Now I have 2 women pregnant by my husband. I feel so fucking stupid. Both pregnancies happened while we were living together. You're a real piece of work. I wish I could go back and change many things about our relationship but I can't. I now see you for what you really are. You're a fucking liar,a cheater,a woman beater and I am beyond thankful that I found this out while I was away. My feelings for you will always remain the same, after all I did spend 13 years with you and you gave me 4 amazing boys. But I no longer see through rose colored lenses. When I talk to you it's completely different now,I talk to a person I once knew. Im sorry for anytime that I made you cry. Just remember though the tears I shed were way stronger and deeper than anything that will ever come from you. 

Everything Changes

Today was one of those days that would eventually turn into a do nothing mentality but I decided that I needed to do this not for myself but for the 4 boys that I finally have with me. I got my stuff together and hit the streets hard. I accomplished everything on my to do list. The things I thoughts I wasn't going to do, I did them. I looked at your picture today and asked my self why? Why didn't it work out? Why did I even think that what we had was much stronger than any outside intruder? One thing did come to mind right away. Even though I know my road will be rocky, I know that my boys will be holding my hands as we walk this path and we will be okay. I truly miss going to sleep next to you. I miss waking up to you and walking you out the door. I miss hearing the babies ask if daddys going to work. I miss that. What I don't miss is the lying. The women around you. The late hours you would come home. The smell of alcohol on you. I am actually at peace with what's going on. My main focus is on how I can show and teach these boys how to become great men. I hope you find whatever it is you're looking for out there.

Carol 8/12/13

Follow Your Heart

By all means do what your heart.tells you. Yes I left "The door open for another woman to walk in." like you both like to say. What I didn't think was that you were going to disrespect the fact that you were still a married man. You disrespected the vows we made on February 27. You think you have yourself a winner.... boy she has you fooled. A real woman who ends up knowing that the man she is attracted to is still married and has small children should have enough respect for herself to know that if one day she were to be in that position she wouldn't want another woman interfering in her marriage. A real woman would say if it's meant to be we'll be together someday and I will not be the cause of a family separation. A real woman would atleast have the decency to talk with the wife and explain her side if the story. A real woman would not bash on the wives mistakes. A real woman would simply wait to see how this "love" turns out. A real woman would never ever be the other woman. You know my only therapy is writing, I do it better than speaking itself. I do believe that everything happens for a reason and that no matter what happens with God and the power of prayer things can get better. I don't attend church. I don't read the Bible. I have committed a ton of sins but even I know that somethings are just plain wrong. I wanted my first marriage to be my only marriage. I didn't and still don't believe in divorce but you two have taught me that a whole different side of the human race. My heart goes with you even though my heart is probably just sitting in your junk drawer. You gave me something that I am eternally grateful for... My Children. You were my first everything. I wish you well with whatever new journey lies ahead. When it's all said and done,you'll think of me.

She's A Homewrecker

Busy Little Bee

You know for acting all high and mighty you're still just a simple bitch. What I do with my free time has Nothing to do with you. I am a stay at home mom. I do manage to wake up to cook breakfast for my children. I do manage to cook lunch and dinner for everyone in this household. I also have time to clean atleast 2/3 times each day everyday. I also have time to browse facebook,twitter and all that the internet offers. So tell me again how a "busy" working woman with a job from 8-5 with 2 daughters has time from her schedule to search for and read my blog!?!?!? What is it about my blog that's so intriguing? Is it that I'm putting your business out there for everyone to read? Sweetie go back to your "busy" lifestyle and stop looking into mine. Oh by the way you'll love these.....

Doing Your Dirty Work

So now you have your "sister" calling me to talk shit on how I'm putting your shit on blast.... Well if you aren't woman enough to call me yourself to tell me to stop then that's your problem. Again I will continue to do this, oh and on your news flash to me...... Go ahead darling keep doing you. Congrats on being a fantastic whore of a woman and mother. What a great example your teaching your daughters.

I Don't Get It

How are you okay with being the other woman? What makes you think that what you're doing is okay? You're destroying a family of 6. Not only are you allowing this cycle to be part of your daughters life in their future. My children know this is going on and those 4 kids are the ones you're hurting Mona. Im an adult and I told you via text that I can be civil all I needed was some time to work/fix my marriage. You didn't respect that wish so from that moment you decided to continue looking and contacting my husband I decided that I will show you the meaning of a cold hearted bitch. I will continue to post your photos on the Web, I will continue to let strangers know that you're a woman who keeps contacting a married man, I will continue to call you names, I will make you regret the say I came into your life. You may have fooled everyone else but not me sweetie.

Diary Of A Whore in pictures

You still think your winning sweetie, but your not. Pictures of this home wrecking whore.

Mona Lisa Hernandez 10-14

This following post is for the WHORE who keeps messaging my husband, the whore who sends a married man pictures of her daughters. This one is dedicated to you sweetie. You try to play innocent but you don't fool me.

Read & Tell

Hello out there...... You guys and gals I'm warning you that my next post will consist of the picture of the WHORE who is still fucking around with a married man who has since returned with his wife and kids. I will also include a picture of her daughters that she keeps sending to a man who is no one to these said kids. I told you from the beginning I can be civil with you but since you're not understanding what that means.. I'll show you how fucking dirty I play!!! NEVER underestimate the power behind my words. Go ahead tell him since you're making a habit of telling him everything I say to you.

Soon Enough

You know with everyone else you can play the innocent bitch but not with me.I saw it the very first time I saw your ugly face.I am the one person who can always see through bullshit it just depends if Im willing to put up with it or not.I can very well put you on blast and please believe when I say baby girl your pushing my buttons.Then I think with my stupid piece of shit kind heart that I have and say to myself"I wouldnt want my picture all over the web in a compromising pose" but then again Im not and will not ever be the OTHER WOMAN to a married man.That right there is the difference between your skank ass and my semi decent ass.Though I know exactly where this is going,Im aware that thinking that the right thing to do was trying to fix my wrongs and my family/marriage Ive come to a sudden stop because Im the only one in my partnership trying to fix it.I know that you BOTH sit and laugh at me but when you laugh to early youll only end up crying ten times worse.I still havent even came close to showing you what I can do but soon enough...soon enough.

Battle Hard

I had an eye opener lastnight.I can't believe I was thinking of second/third/fourth chances.Then I saw a picture of the two of you.I laughed at first then I wanted to cry and literally kept telling myself that I should not cry. First off I know that while I was at home and not going out because I still respect the word marriage,you apparently didn't give a fuck about it. What pissed me off was that you are NOT taking care of my children the way you should be. You don't get to them until 8pm, you don't know if they're hungry,if they're sad,all you do is leave to work fuck around with your co worker bitch and then go home to sleep. I have always thought our kids came first but with a new bitch taking up your time I see different. You were to bring them to me this wknd but because you're scared that they'll tell me you have a girlfriend you didn't bring them. I've always told you I'm Always two steps ahead of you on everything. I will tell you this DON'T BEAT HER FACE IN the way you did with me. I WILL give you your freedom to be with whoever you want to be with but with that freedom you want so bad I will also take no better yet RIP YOUR HEART OUT. Be ready for the fight of your life.

I Am The Highway

At times I wonder how it all came down to this moment when I sit in front of this screen and type away.I find very soothing to be able to do this,its my diary of some sort I guess.I dont do it for you and yours,I do it for me to keep my sanity in check.I know you dont  understand why I write but from the looks of it I know you read it.Im not afraid of what comes out onto this screen I write when Im happy,when Im sad and even when Im mad.I dont know maybe Im helping someone out there.?I dont really know where this post is going but Ill continue anyway.


I wonder if you remember everything as clearly as I do.I still dont understand even after 10 months that have passed...WHY??? I know Im far from perfect but why did you hurt me the way you did.In the beginning I knew where it was coming from,it was people lying to you telling you lies about me and what I supposedly had done.I have a very clean conscious I dont and didnt have anything to hide from you and I still dont.I remember every thing you said everything you did.I cant get past that.I remained loyal to you for so long and even after all the abuse started.I did think about it a few times but I couldnt.Simple as that.I was there for everyhting.Helped you build from the ground up everything you wanted to have and you still couldnt see or believe in me.I knew of your shadows that always followed but I stuck around.What did I do to get treated like shit by you?In the end though I did tell you everything and after being abused for 10 years I did do the thing you thought I always did,only difference is that it wasnt with anyone you knew.You wanna know why...every person you accused me with is and still isnt worth my time not then and never will be worth my time.I know this is probably not important but for someone like myself who sits here and thinks of everything I endured and yet I stand with my head held high speaks millions.Im not bitter because I know that at one point in my life I wanted to be with you.Unfortunately it didnt give or bring the happiness I deserve.Now I look at you and actually wish you the best with someone else.Ive closed that chapter in my life.I know what it feels like to put myself first,my happiness that I onced thought I had isnt compared to what it is now.(my Audioslave Pandora Radio is on point right now)I dont have everything I want and need but I will soon enough.I pray that Karma isnt a bitch to you.I hope one day Ill be able to understand why everything happened the way it did,but untill then Ill have my blog to express every feeling I have.I hope I do find peace at the end of this tunnel.

Karma's Friend

You know what really gets under my skin...when people make assumptions about me from what they have heard from other people.I know Im not the prettiest girl around shit I may not even come off as a smart girl at times but shit what gives you any right to talk about me to other people who dont know me?!I understand that Im not perfect because in my 26 years of life I have made some fucked up shit and yes I have learned from my mistakes because thats what people do they make mistakes and learn from them.I dont have anything that is worth someone looking at me and saying"I wish I had that" what I do have is a husband and kids,I have nothing to my name, not even a house hell not even a fucking car.What is it about my life that you find soo fucking great?I dont have a perfect marriage its far from that.Im a high school drop out,I had my first kid at the tender age of 17.I stay at home while my husband literally kills himself to provide for us.What do you dislike or better yet what or why do you find my life so interesting to keep talking about it?I am socially akward person,thats just who I am I dont allow other people to see the person I really am because I hate to be judged,I dont judge anyone!!not even when I should tahts not for me to decide or to even talk about.I dont ever let anyone or anything get to me beacause the way I see it is that if you tak that much time to concentrate to talk about me than you certainly dont have enough time to take care of your own shit and thats why the things around you dont go as planned,but this time Im pissed.I hate and I do mean hate people like that,that can one day smile to your face as if everything is okay and the next theyre barking like the bitch they truly are.WHY? I just dont get it???!!!! Really if you think that by talking bad about me makes you look any better baby girl it doesnt, because as the people you are telling these lies too are getting to know me they are noticing that the fake bitch is really you!!!!I dont have to put on a fake smile to every event I go to because I do like being out and about,I do like being seen as the awkward silent girl then the girl I heard this about and so on.Please believe that Karma is a bitch and that bitch has a good friend named Carol and that said friend can turn your life into a fucking living hell if need be.I am not afarid to get air out anything and everything I know.I can and will always be a true frind,a friend that will have your back thick or thin,a friend that you will always remember and say "Damn,I miss that girl" a friend who will always be around no matter how near or far you are.I can also be that girl who you hate,the girl who made you cry,the girl who made you question your exsistance,the girl who you wished you never lost,the girl that your scared to look at,the girl who makes your life a living hell,the girl who will spit on your name and laugh,the girl who you didnt expect to do all these things.I dont like to be that girl,I really dont but when you push my buttons to that extreme I can be that girl and I will not have any remorse for the actions that come after it.I always try my very best to keep everyone happy because I love to love if that makes any sense.Im a kind soul and I do see good in everyone but the world is full of shady people and I know I have to roll with the punches but fuck it, a girl can only do soo much.
Well thats it for my fuck you post,other than that Im having a good start of the week and weekend was beyond good.Make it a good week you guys,Love Ya!!!

Lies & Deception

I tell you this week is not even over and it has been sooo shitty!!! Big Black is not fucking working,she's my burban!!! now I gotta walk everywhere I need to go,good thing is school is a block away and I need the excersise.I really hope 2012 is way better than this year it fucking sucked balls!!!!!! Ive still been looking for work but no luck.Monday was even worse,I mean I understand that sometime people have to lie in order to NOT hurt the people around them but to lie and shut the door in your face is something totally different.I know that lies can hurt and even destroy the things around you but shit really how do you tell four different lies in one conversation,then to think that this particular person was the only one we could see and trust the way we did...a fucking shame.but its okay as I blog about all my troubles I know there are some stupid fucking air headed people who will use this to their advantage and go run their fucking piece of shit ass mouth and sweety go ahead what more can you do to me????? Im used to not having anyone I can trust,Im used to not having family who I can turn too,used to always being the subject in someones conversation and you know what Im still standing and Im still doing all the things I want and can do.I hate not being able to express myself only because I always think about the other people around me and the stupid "what if" I hurt them bullshit.and that my friends is why I blog to express my hurt and disappointment,my thoughts and if this is the only way to do it then so be it.I know I need just a little bit of faith to overcome some of these things but it gets hard really hard for me at times.Oh and I forgot to mention that I deleted my facebook because that too was a way for you bitches to keep tabs on me,FUCK YOU !!!!!! and may you whores keep doing what you do best....Being Sluts,Bitches & Skanks.
Okay I feel better now and to the people who do wish to see me succeed, Thank You.