Blog Love

Hey guys another thing I forgot to inform you is that I have another blog solely for the purpose of reviewing books,I just started this month so hang in there as I start to do many more reviews.Oh,Read It.

Do You See Me

Lately I ve wondered what your doing,how youre feeling.Yet I have no courage to actually go see these things for myself.Has anything changed from the last encounter?A smile was all it ever took and these days a smile is all I need.Do I ever cross your mind or am I a reflection of your past.Have you shed tears over something I dont know about and probably never will,there's this constant reminder of what you left behind and frankly I'm not gonna lie I ve tried to forget about it all and the outcome is always the same.A simple sight of different objects always brings it back and for that instance that smile I know I needed is put on my face.If you ever come across this blog you'll know which ones are for you.I go to all the familiar places we've encountered,I sit and reflect on the times when it seemed easier when in fact it was actually harder. Patiently I wait for a moment that may never come but to me the word never is something I can look forward too.

Finally

I am back!! It seemed like it was the longest week of my entire life waiting for this internet to be fixed.Christmas the kiddos had alot of fun they received everything they wanted plus more.I seriously missed blogging which at times I dont blog as often as I should but boy did I miss it and reading all of your blogs as well.I do have a couple of things I want to write but it'll have to be in another post not this one.

Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
Happy Hanukkah

To all my readers
love you guys!!!

Lies & Deception

I tell you this week is not even over and it has been sooo shitty!!! Big Black is not fucking working,she's my burban!!! now I gotta walk everywhere I need to go,good thing is school is a block away and I need the excersise.I really hope 2012 is way better than this year it fucking sucked balls!!!!!! Ive still been looking for work but no luck.Monday was even worse,I mean I understand that sometime people have to lie in order to NOT hurt the people around them but to lie and shut the door in your face is something totally different.I know that lies can hurt and even destroy the things around you but shit really how do you tell four different lies in one conversation,then to think that this particular person was the only one we could see and trust the way we did...a fucking shame.but its okay as I blog about all my troubles I know there are some stupid fucking air headed people who will use this to their advantage and go run their fucking piece of shit ass mouth and sweety go ahead what more can you do to me????? Im used to not having anyone I can trust,Im used to not having family who I can turn too,used to always being the subject in someones conversation and you know what Im still standing and Im still doing all the things I want and can do.I hate not being able to express myself only because I always think about the other people around me and the stupid "what if" I hurt them bullshit.and that my friends is why I blog to express my hurt and disappointment,my thoughts and if this is the only way to do it then so be it.I know I need just a little bit of faith to overcome some of these things but it gets hard really hard for me at times.Oh and I forgot to mention that I deleted my facebook because that too was a way for you bitches to keep tabs on me,FUCK YOU !!!!!! and may you whores keep doing what you do best....Being Sluts,Bitches & Skanks.
Okay I feel better now and to the people who do wish to see me succeed, Thank You.

Kids Book Exchange

This seems like one fun book exchange,if any of my readers would like to do this..come on with it.

You get the email with the kids name, age, and address.
You buy a book and ship it to them with one week of getting the email.
You can buy a book on amazon or a site like that and save yourself the shipping hassle.
Then you forward the email to 6 others.
You send one book and you or your child will get 35 back!
How awesome does that sound?
Pretty awesome to me.

It's easy just leave me your email address and I'll send you the Book Exchange Email.

Happy Birthday Damion

Even though I may not be your biological mother,YOU are my kids too.I know one day we will be together but for now MY only way of knowing of the two of you is through pictures.I wish I could call everyday and ask how are you,I wish that I could see yall every weekend,I wish I could hug yall till yall say stop it carol but I cant.It breaks my heart knowing I cant be around because your mommy doesnt allow it and I would would rather look at pictures than to have your mom tell YOUR dad that he cant see yall.One day the two of you will be old enough to understand why everything happened the way it did and you too will also see how tried to keep you from us.I miss yall very much boys not a day goes by that I dont think about yall,all the kids always ask when can we pick up Damion & Benny and my only answer to them is I dont know.I remember when yall were small and still in diapers and on bottles,I remember when I took both of those things away,the places we went together,the day little Daniel was born and the both of you wanted to carry him so bad,all the new food you tried,everything those memories will forever stay with me.Words cant explain just how bad I wish you were here.how Id love to hear my name being called from you two.You boys have and will always have a BIG place in my heart because to me yall are my kids too.I love yall very much.
Happy 11th Birthday Damion(in the red)

Love Always,
Carol

Looking Up

After a couple of shitty weeks and days it seems that maybe just maybe things are starting to turn around.I am once again sick!! :( I hate it passionately but this time around Im taking some sort of medicine cause you know I cant stay sick for long.I am thinking about going back to school which I may start in January and I have found a J-O-B !!!!! Im so proud of myself !!!!! its part time but something is something and LORD knows Ive been looking for a very long time!!Overall things are falling into place and I am very grateful for that and thats all I ever want for things to be easy and non dramatic.Thats all for now :)

XOXO

B.S.F

FYF

This week has been pretty tough and today seems perfect for this.I broke down for the first time in a very long time,you see I try not to let shit get to me but this one over did it.

Fawk You-Marriage cause sometimes your a BITCH!!!

Fawk You-YOU,how dare you say that shit to me!!

Fawk You-Weather how do you go from the 80's to the 40's in the same week??????

Fawk You-To anyone who likes to talk shit about me,keep on hating BITCH!!!!!!

Most of all FAWK YOU !!!!!!

That's all I have for today.

Real Talk

WHY.......For as many years as I can remember I've been asking my self this same question.How much more of this am I gonna be able to take without completely breaking down.You see I grew up in a home where I had an alcoholic father and a mother who would get beat to pulp because of this said disease.I always seem to be able to remember the bad stuff I saw from my childhood,I never can remember any good and happy things going on around me.As the years went by nothing changed,everything stayed the same even when she was pregnant.I remember hiding under a table and watching as he was about to strike when I scared shitless yelled"dont hit my mom" that keep him calm for that night and that night only.Things just seemed to stay the same for a very long time.Until one day she left us at the sitters house to go find work maybe that was the only way she could get away from it all.We would stay until 7 even 8 pm then it was a quick hurry up and go to sleep.Then my brothers were born and things seemed like just maybe it was gonna be okay but it wasn't.All my life I have been surrounded by abuse.Mine started at the age of 16,till this day.I don't know what more I can take,I know I'm not perfect but FUCK!!!!!! I am human the shit you say hurt me.I stay home,I may not have the house smelling like fucking Martha Stewart but give me some credit we do have 4 boys living in this house.I want to be the perfect house wife you want me to be but I CANT. I do things the only way I know how little by little I didn't have a mom to teach all this shit.You compare me to her.. I'm always yelling and bitching but I'm not like her I sit and help my kids do their best in school,I tech them that one day I'm not gonna be there to do everything for them so they need to learn how to cook and clean even if its only using the microwave.I don't understand how being my husband you can say"I DON'T KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH YOU THAT MAKES ME NOT WANT TO BE WITH YOU" I have to ask for government assistance because if I didn't how would we eat?I have to ask your family for money when we need it.I have to pick up after yourself when you come home and leave all your stuff on the floor.I think I do it all and I still have to put a smile on my fucking face when we go out, if I don't I'm just a bitch.I want to be able to cry it all out but I cant because the kids are always around.Yeah I've made mistakes,mistakes that always come back up.I just wish I knew what to do.I bet You didn't know that I have tried to NO SUCCESS to commit suicide not 1 but 3 times.At the age of 12 I put a loaded gun to my head took the safety off closed my eyes took a deep breath and said fuck it,nothing happened WHY? At 15 I took 2 full bottles of prescription medicine hoping to never wake up and I woke up and puked everything out WHY? 16 I cut my wrist and saw and felt all the blood drain from me.I looked out the window and said "please I don't want to do this anymore" but of course I woke the fuck up!!! WHY ?????!!!!!! why am still here? why am I still being abused? why must this shit happen to me? why or what is my purpose here??? One day when I'm not around people are gonna wish that they knew all this shit,wish they could of did something to help me out instead of insulting my parenting skills,my life,my marriage.the only way thing I know how to do is block everything out and make sure that my kids see a smile on their moms face.that I tell them everything will be okay and that I love them.My only question is still the same WHY??????????? Will I ever get the answer......who knows.

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Phillip

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Today you turn 5

Awkward

You know I wasnt gonna write on this one about this but of course fuck it.this past weekend was very busy and full of party invites that we had to miss one of them and go to the other 2 that we had made plans for,that being said I looked up the word awkward cause the most awkward thing happened to me,I sat at the same table next to a girl who I went to school with but the only different thing on that was that not only did I not like her but we actually fought each other.yeah I know right!!??!! but as we all know crazy shit always happens before you have kids so as the adult that I am I decided to start up a simple conversation with said girl.turned out okay which then I realized that the hubs was talking to another(kids were(my kids)acting an ass in the bounce house)girl and as soon as she turned I was like hell theres another one yes people 2 girls who didnt like me way back when.but this one was way far away from me so it was okay,that one I would of kicked her ass!!! but anyway weekend turned out great and we had a ton of fun and a ton of drinks:) what I was to write ....

I have come to terms with the people around me family mostly and Ive learned that when I really need people to be around for support and such no one is ever around,Ive learned that when MY family needs helps everyone always has an excuse to say no to us, and because of all of that Ive learned along time ago that the only people I need in my life are my 4 babies and my husband.Dont get me wrong it hurts to know that we have no help but again they actually do us a favor,if and when things were different I dont know how close or together we'd all be.I would like that alot but you know shit happens.I have and will continue to tell my husband that the only family he needs is us,his wife and kids.anybody else can go to hell,we'll all see each other there anyway.Family is very important to the hubs,not so much to me(only mine matters)and it breaks my heart when he tells me that "no one loves him" he'll ask why? and at times I have no answers to give him.but babe we will be okay with or without them!!!

I needed to get that off my chest and agin Thank You Blogger for allowing me to do this.

XOXO Carol

Swapoween

You guys I just found the coolest fucking thing EVER!!! would you like to get some goodies in your mailbox well you'll have to go here and here for all the details.This sounds like soo much fun!!! Looking forward to it. :)

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Gator

could this week get any worse???!!!! I have lost one of my babies,our dog Gator is missing and I feel like Im just the worst dog mommy in the world,I couldnt stop crying last night I was even crying in my sleep,babe had to wake me up and ask if I was okay.I had him when he was soo small he couldnt even get out of a laundry basket,he was my baby,he would sleep in my room,I would feed him thats how small he was.I dont think he left cause he NEVER got out from the back yard and it makes me mad just to think someone would steal a family pet.I miss his barks,his scratching on the back door.I miss you dearly Gator.babe was so mad because not only myself but all the kids were crying,we went looking for him until 1am calling out his name but nothing!!To who ever has I hope you take good care of him,breaks my heart just writing that,I cant even get mad!!!I miss you Gator,please come back home if you did get out.

Sunday Morning

Like any other weekend this story would be the same drinking and hangovers but this one was waaayyy different!!!! As I know alot of you watched the Mayweather Vs Ortiz boxing match and I know alot of people may have been surprised by the outcome of it..what a sucker punch on Mayweather's part but let me not get into that subject cause it really gets me mad! Anyway come to Sunday morning 8am to be exact I woke up and was looking for something to drink looked in the fridge and I had left a 2liter club soda in the freezer and it was frozen solid...I really dont know what I was thinking when I grabbed it turned the cold water on and yes people I put the bottle under running water and guess what the hell happened next.....that damn thing BURST right in my hands!!!!!! at first I didnt notice anything until I wanted to start to sweep my living room my hands were hurting to the point that I couldnt have my hands around the broom,I look at then and they're all messed up.my left hand has a bruise all over it,my middle finger was cut and it fucking hurts like hell.My right hand is even worse I cant close my hands to even make a fist,my middle finger's nail is turning purple and it may fall off! :( my ring finger is all bruised up the same with this hand hurts really bad.Last night I couldnt sleep cause I was in pain I even started crying!! even as in typing it hurts I cant open a packet of seasoning,cant hold things for too long,cant even pour myself a drink and even driving the kiddos to school this morning was hard!!! Im not much of a whiner but this is too much I cant do shit!!!! other than that we had a good weekend finished with a bbq with family.So overall it was good except for my sunday morning.

Love you guys and I hope yall have a wonderful work week ahead of you.
XOXO

Anyone There

Hey guys!! I know I know I've been MIA but Im here havent done much but care for the kiddos and helping out with alot of reading and homework.nothing exciting has happened just yet but hey thats part of motherhood..ROUTINE!! the only thing that did happen and made me extremely happy was Season 4 of Sons Of Anarchy started yesterday!!! and ofcourse I was happy to see the sexy man himself"Jax" cause you know I got to meet him a while back!!! :) so yeah there you go havent done much and I have my moments of wanting to blog but yet have no kind of energy to just sit in front of the computer for it which I know its only a phase,gotta go and and get shit done around the casa cause I really let it go to shit over this summer vacay so until later ..love you guys and yes Im still reading every single one of yall!!!

Love
Carol :)

P.O

THIS IS ME!!! and I LOVE IT!!!!

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VERY TRUE

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LOVE THIS

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This Is So Me!!!!

WWTK

Q'S

{1} If you could be on any game show what would it be?
{2} If you could choose to stay any certain age forever, what age would it be?
{3} What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
{4} What would i find in your fridge right now?
{5} If you were a piece of furniture what would you be? why?


A'S

1)freakin' Family Fued!!!! why cause I always seem to get all the answers right and who doesnt want to win money for answering random questions!!

2)since Im still in my 20's I really dont know maybe my mid 30's cause by then Im sure I'll get to party with my boys and I know thats gonna be alot of fun!!

3)its the summer dont judge,"making" the kids cereal...lol

4)ham,hotdogs,milk, avocados,tomatoes,lettuce.butter...we just went grocery shopping yall got lucky!!

5)I would want to be some cool yet weird piece of furniture from Ikea!!!

Mamarazzi & Queso

Summer Coming To An End

Summer is about to be over and the kiddos will be going back to school in less than 2 weeks and I am more excited than they are why...well because over their summer vacay this house has been to hell and back.I mean I kinda let it go too but come on when you have 4 boys at home all day why bother right.?!?why fully clean when it will return to looking like these kids have no parents supervising them,when clean their bathroom if as soon as you walk back in in less than 3 minutes it smells like urine again,why vacuum when they will eat everything from breakfast to dinner in the living room instead of the kitchen table,why wash and re wash the pots and pans when as soon as I sit down theyre asking for food again,so when I say Im excited about them returning to school it means Im gonna hate having to wake up early just to gripped at by 3 boys and a husband but I am looking forward to clean.the.living.hell.out.of.this.house!!!!!!!!Im also the type that will throw away random shit if it gets in ,my way of cleaning.Im sure the house will appreciate how I will leave it but until then Im doing just the basics sweeping,mopping and washing both dishes and laundry,a few extras but nothing heavy duty!!please hurry up august 22 Im ready to kick I mean take these kids to school!!!

FYF

Overall this week has been pretty good until I got a call early in the(wedsnday)morning with some really shitty news!!!
A friend of ours had to have her baby girl who is 4 life flighted to the hospital because she was kicked on the head by a horse,yes you read that right!!!she is currently in the ICU has all kinds of iv's and things of such all over her little body,they had to shave her entire beautiful head of blond hair for surgery to remove broken bone fragments from her brain,these next 72 hrs are very crucial but overall she is responding very good to everything!!Thank GOD for that!!!Nothing but love and prayers are going your way Brenna,we all love you and need you around just a tad bit longer. :)

that being said...
Fawk You,Fawk You,Fawk You ,Fawk You to the horse that kicked her,
I will forever see horses in a totally different way now!!!

WWTK

Q'S-
{1} If you could spend a day with a blogger, who you haven't met in real life, who would you choose?
{2} What website do you check first when you go online?
{3} What is something you are saving money for right now?
{4} What is your go to silly face when a silly face is needed? (post a pic of it and be entered to win a prize from Mamarazzi)
{5} How do you relieve stress?

A'S-
1) Ive "met" some pretty awesome folks here on blogger and Im sure if we got together we would tear Texas up!!! I'll just have to post a different list cause it really would be too long!!

2)MSN,ofcourse to check my email and then yes people I morning facebook!!!

3)Saving Money,what is that????????

4)believe it or not Im not a silly face kinda gal especially if a picture is going to be taken!!! Sorry

5)I Drink!!,wine beer and of course my main boo Mr.Jose Cuervo and the one they call Patron!!!!

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Mamarazzi
Queso

Beauty

Childhood

Think

I absolutely love this.

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Traffic

So I was looking at all the traffic that comes and or finds my blog on the web and this is what I got!!!???

Search Keywords


oh fuck it


oh, fuck it blog


=marvins room


charlie hunnam appearance columbus texas-makes sense since I was there and blogged about it.


fuck it blogger


fuck video-well Im sorry you didnt land on your porno video but you did land on this awesome blog...your welcome !!


fuck you cookie-ummmm what the fuck is all this about?? but whatever right as long as they come to my blog right????


jax teller shirtless-SEXY is all I can say about that!!!


ohh fuck it


sex fuck food-weird combo but I guess???

Yeah Im bored and yes I am blogging about this!!!

WWTK

{1} Who would you call if you had to get bailed out of jail?
{2} If you were a superhero what would your hero name be?
{3} What do you think is one of your best qualities?
{4} What song would you pick to be your own personal theme song?
{5} What celebrity do you think is most over rated?

1)of course the hubs unless he went to jail as well !! my back up would be my dad cause Im still his little girl and thats awesome to still know that at 26yrs old!!!

2)this one is pretty tough ,I really cant think of one but if I had too it probably be...Im stuck on this one????? sorry :(

3)Im gonna go with being able to forgive and that Im also a truly genuine friend for life,Ive come to know alot of people in my life and they always tell me the same thing "you were a really good friend" I know Im fucking fantastic!!

4)right now it has to be...the one by Treal Lee that says "dont give a fuck, fuck everybody!!! just cause every now and then you gotta say fuck you!!!

5)I mean I love her music but come on your still talking about her as if she just had her very first single out...Lady Gaga!!!

Brought to you by Mamarazzi & Queso

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FYF &FF

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Fawk you to the Wednesday where the kids stressed me the fuck out and I had to drink a beer and have me a cigarette!!

Fawk You to you because apparently Im fucking the whole world even all my facebook friends!!

Fawk You to stress and what stress does to you!

Fawk Me cause this week I just had to fucking cry it out by myself outside cause sometimes life&marriage can be very very shitty!!!

and last but not least
Better Late than Pregnant!!!

WWTK

{1} What would you do with an extra $1000 a month?
Id first help hubby pay bills and with whatever was left over I might do a little shopping!!!

{2} What category of blogger do you think you best fall under?
that I don't know I just write and people actually read it!!!

{3} What is your go to solution when you are having a bad hair day?
I always put it in a bun,fast and easy.

{4} If you were a Crayon, what color would you be?
Radiant Red since red is my favorite color!!!

{5} They say love is in the little things. What is a little thing someone does to show you love?
I occasionally get email that say I love you :) and it makes my fucking day!!!!

There you go now go link up!!
Thanks to the CO HOST Mamarazzi & Queso

Well Worth The Wait

Weekend Recap-
Friday-we had family over and yes we got a little drunk and we were talking about everything thing random until I brought up the subject of the EasyRidersTour and with that being said and also the fact that we had to drive to Columbus,Texas and that Charlie Hunnam aka Jax Teller from the amazing tv hit show Sons Of Anarchy was gonna be there we all decided we needed a spur of the moment family road trip!!!!we didnt get to sleep that night till like 3/4 am and woke up saturday mornig did the breakfast thing and showers and all that good stuff ,we were kinda in a rush cause Jax was only supposed to be there from 2-6..long story short we got lost and when we finally found the place it was 5:30pm we find the place where Jax was gonna be at to sign stuff and take pictures and we wait in line,then we hear an annoucment that he is running late and would be here at around 7! PERFECT TIMING!!!! we were in line for about 2 maybe 3 HOURS BUT IT WAS ALL WELL WORTH IT.he is as sexy in person as he is in the show,very nice guy,very polite and he smells really really good,he gives the best hugs in the fucking world!!!! my bucket list just got a little shorter!!!!! and well this girl here is a very happy camper!!! I will forever see the show in a different way!!!

***WARNING DUE TO THE NATURE OF MY SHITTY CAMERA PHONE HERE GOES THE PIC***
YES,THIS IS THE ONLY TIME I WILL ACCEPT ALL KINDS OF HATING!!!!!!:)

To My First

Happy Birthday to my baby Daniel!!! This momma is very proud to have you as a son!!!

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If you miss me, you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.

FYF

And of course I'm gonna talk about what everyone and they momma talking about around the world!!!
FAWK YOU Casey Anthony!!I mean who does that shit???who lies about their baby? who party's when they re baby is missing? are you fucking dumb or what!!?? I have near death experiences when I cant find my own kids in my own house!! my hearts starts to pound and it makes me wanna cry and then I find them sleeping under the table or on the side of the bed!!! and it makes me wanna beat the hell out of them for scarring the shit out of me but then I'm happy as hell that they re okay!!! I believe they re are 2 sides to every story but this one is just 1 sided,the bitch is guilty!how do you not cry I wouldn't give a fuck if I was being taped I would look like shit!!And the part that gets me the most is of poor baby Caylee!do you know how bad I wish I had a little girl running around in my house and you go and kill her and throw her away like trash!!!
Okay enough of that or I'm shit gonna start getting mad again!!
\FAWK YOU to that damn little bump/pimple inside of my nose that bitch hurts!!!
FAWK YOU to haters in general!!!
That's it for this week!!
Enjoy your weekend!!

Blog Love

Who doesn't Love shoes??!!! A fellow blogger posted this on her blog and I took a look and I loved it !!! This blogger just started so please follow and be sure to look out for more shoe updates,oh and p.s they re freaking affordable !!

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You can tell more about a person by what he says about others than you can by what others say about him.

WWTK

1. What was the last thing you searched for online?
2. If we visit your home state, what is one MUST we should do before leaving?
3. What do you think pharmaceutical companies should invent a pill for that isn't on the market yet?
4. When was your first kiss? Was it good or bad?
5. What is your guilty pleasure tv show that you can not miss?


1)I guess you can call it the knock off version of Kim K's shoedazzle,JustFab.com.they sell you shoes,handbags and even jean for 39.95,saw i on a commercial and yup I signed up.

2)Texas-the Galleria in Houston,the Six Flags Fiesta texas in San Antonio,think thats it for me my usuals are those!!??

3)Quit being an assholeitis pill-for the men ofcourse !!!!!

4)first tongue kiss...was from my hubby believe it or not but do believe I left my fair share of pecks on the cheeck !!!! I left ALOT of those !!!!!!!

5)right now I am currently obssesd with JERSEYLICIOUS, those girls are a fucking trip but I love it!!!!

You know the drill go link up !!!

FYF

Fawk You- to obsessed baby mommas who cant get over their ex even after he is married and has 4 kids!!

Fawk You- to your other baby daddy who thinks he can call my husband to ask when will he drop off his own kids....umm dumbass you aint nothing but a step dad to them and you have no right calling us to ask when will they go home!!! you will get a harassment suit on your ass if you dont quit!!!

Fawk You- dryer belt your ass busted on me and I gotta go back to the 1800's and hang a dry line to dry my clothes since where we live they have no laundry mats !!!

Fawk You- in general cause Im gonna keep doing my thing and your still gonna hate on what you wish you had..BIOTCH !!!!

THAT IS ALL MY FRIENDS,ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND !

Blogger

I was thinking last night of how I came across blogger in the first place,then I remembered exactly what I typed in the google search engine...what is a blog and of course blogger came up along with other sites like word press and tumblr and I started reading on what a blog was.To me it all came to this...online diary!which made me want to write since Ive had diaries before and my privacy was shot to hell,so I clicked on the blogger one since of course had the word blog in it and I happened to search for it when my uncle had passed away and my first post was about him.As the days went by and I found some really cool blogs to read and noticed they had like 100+ followers I thought shit I want that many followers too.I can now say fuck the 100+ followers cause the ones I have now are people who always comment when I'm feeling shitty and their words really do comfort me.I blog about the most weirdest shit sometimes and there are times when I blog about some really personal shit and the same people from the get go are always there,Thanks you guys!! July will be my blogaversary and I'm so excited I may even throw myself a party!! which you are all invited!!! and Ive come a long way from the beginning when I started I want a nice "mommy blog" with all the achievements of my kiddos and things like that,no cursing but then that wouldn't be me cause I curse and yell and talk shit and do all the stuff mommy blogs don't do.Point is I am very happy with all my stuff on blogger and I wouldn't have it any other way,to my followers Thank You for being loyal and putting up with this crazy girl from Texas,It really means alot to me to know that when I'm down I can count on my bloggy friends for support which some of you I even have on Facebook!!! I cant thank you enough!!Thank you to Blogger for this opportunity to leave my mark in the Internet world.Thank You :)
Love,
Carol

WWTK

1)What is the best or worst pick up line you have ever been given?
2)What is your most and least favorite day of the week?
3)How many hours of sleep do you require each night?
4)Is there a song that takes you back in time? What song is it and what memory is it attached to?
5)What is your biggest guilty pleasure?


1)Are you tired? cause youve been running through my mind all day & my "Fav." So did it hurt when you fell from heaven?,I cant believe guys really used some corny shit like that one me,No it didnt work!!!

2)Most Fav. Friday
Least Fav. Monday

3)8 but with 4 kids I only seem to be getting 5,then to be able to "work" I chug down on some Maxwell coffee.

4)Gangsters Paradise by Coolio,which makes me think of my not giving a fuck days,skipping school with my friends from middle school.Thats all I have to say about that !!!

5)this one is pretty tough since Ive always been a laid back kinda girl and not your average girly girl,so Ill go with food.I love,love,love to cook anything and everything and ofcourse Im blessed with a family that will eat everything I make!!!

There you have it,same as any other WWTK, go link up and play !!

Blog Love

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Wknd Recap

Weekend Recap,we had a somewhat of a good Fathers day weekend.The best thing that came out of it is that we had all 6 boys here for what I think is the first fathers day ever(and the oldest is 10yrs old)but I could be wrong since I have a slight Alzheimer's going on,but anyways we had fun more like I had fun watching my babe play call of duty,basketball and just spending some quality time with his kids.saturday he had to work so and after that he tried to fix the dryer since the belt broke,sucks ass I tell you and we ended the night a little tipsy,Sunday....no work woke up at like 1 pm in the afternoon,did the same play outside,ride bikes,and more call of duty.as the day was winding down we threw some steaks on the grill to eat and we were waiting on the sister in law to get here,all was well,going fucking fantastic everyone smiling and laughing when s*i*l get a phone call from a unknown number which we thought it was the boys grandma to see about drop off time for them but it wasn't it was their..let me put it in a nice way, their mom of course she was pissed cause it was late and she wanted them home but babe wasn't gonna dive anywhere he was gonna drop them off today monday,which he has every right to keep them the whole summer but she gets all offended and wants to talk to him,you know cause she is still obsessed with my husband and here is the post you wanna read on that subject!well long story short she must of said some really fucked up shit to my babe to piss him off cause he came inside and told his sis "to not bring that shit to his house" and oh good god hell broke loose!!! shit was yelled and curse words and babe left,s-i-l left pissed off at each other and it was all because of that stupid bitch!!! all you do is cause problems for our family,he is their father and has the right to keep them the summers but since you think you may have a chance one day with him again,your wrong if all you do is talk shit to him about his kids and not let him see them then bitch he will NEVER want to even see your name in painting!!! when people say your name he hears that chalk board screeching thing/sound sooo please have the decency to act like a normal human being when it comes to that.That is all!!!
So that's how we spent fathers day !!!

Happy

Yesterday had to be one of the most mind altering day in my life,we went to pick up my bonus babies!!!!!! I was expecting the same shit like always we get there and they tell some bullshit that hey are not there but they we're,hubby talks to who I'm guessing are her brothers? and he walks up to he little patio area and since my ass is blind I couldn't see who was here but what I did see was a small white shirt wrapping his arms around babe!!! That very moment made a few ears run down my face!!! Then they both jumped in the ruck and I felt so strange like as I was meeting them for the first time or something,weird I know then I looked back and saw two smiling faces and I got a "Hi Carol" melted my mothafuckin heart away!!!! My DAMION & Benny,then we get home and my babies went ballistic hugging,high fivein', and just straight up throwing a welcome home party(I can just imagine when they get older,trust me they know how to party)lets just say their party didn't end until 2 am!! but I was happy that my kids were happy seeing their brothers again.I am a very blessed momma to have 6 boys under my roof and I hope I get he chance to continue to all of them grow up and become responsible MEN.and to top it off Fathers day weekend,I know my babe is very happy and pleased to have them all together once again.

FYF

Havent done one of these in a while so here I come...

Fawk You to the stupid bitch who thinks she could come to my house and yell at my baby,thats why your ass got told and a door was slammed on your plastic face.

Fawk You to the fucking lawyer who didnt show up yesterday for my babes court hearring.

Fawk You to all and any person/people who really wish to see us doing bad,Fuck You Bitches !!!

Fawk You to all the people that make my babe stress at work!!

I think thats it,wasnt too bad of a week.

No One Like Him

Today(6-16-2011) would of been his 40th but God decided he wanted a real Gangster in Heaven.Happy Birthday Tupac.



Gone but NEVER forgoten.
Sincerely your #1 fan.
Carol

Tramp !!!

you stupid white trashy bitch don't fucking come yelling at my son because your stupid ass left your fucking dog running around,you should of had that piece of shit chiwawa on a fucking leash!!!my son was trying to find the god damn owner but he couldn't so he brought that shit home and was gonna wait for his dad to come home so we could call the number on the leash!!! and then you fucking little boy,i will not say the other thing I want to call you cause frankly your still a kid but if you weren't....watch the fuck out!!!!! you bring that dumb blond headed I'm rich and your not dumb bitch here.....swear... I fucking hate people who have the fucking nerve to yell at my child!!! then you say to my baby "you shouldn't even be there" that stupid kid and everyone else swims there tell them something!!!Stupid Fucking Bitch!!! go tan and die!!!! Really Pissed off!!! Please dont take this as an insult it goes directly to the dumb tramp who just left my house!!!

WWTK

So you know the drill...

Questions-

1.} You have been asked to give a 10 minute speech to teenage girls. What is it about?


2.} Do you have a pet? Tell us about them. No pets? Why?


3.} What is the biggest inconvenience about the place you're currently living?


4.} What do you think is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?


5.} What are the THREE "nevers" of your life? {things you would never do or have never done}.

ANSWERS-

1)Please for the love of God KEEP YOUR LEGS CLOSED!!! BOYS WILL COME AND GO LITERALLY,you will not find Mr.Right if your sleeping with Mr.Tatto,Mr.Im too cool for school and Mr. I told you I love you!getting your education is top priority,no one likes a dumb debbie dropout!! they love the smart,has and will get a good job Sally!!!If you get pregnant yo WILL NOT be on 16& pregnant!! I had 4 and Im still not on that show ;) most importantly school HAS to be first and come everything else.

2)We have a GATOR, our adorable black lab that we have had since he was a puppy so small he couldn't get out of a laundry basket,my boys LOVE him!! he is now the new baby of the house!! we love you Gator!!!

3)Nothing really,school is a block away so is the pool and park sooo this place is legit!!! and we have no nosey neighbors..extra plus!!

4)SETTLED DOWN,had kids and got hitched!! cause I was the ultimate party girl who really didnt care about anyhting or anybody.I dont even want to think about where Id be if I didnt have my kid or husband!!!

5)I would never turn my back on my kids,NEVER!!!!
I have never been to Mexico, and Id love to go but with all them crazy people who knows when Ill get that chance now??
I would never kill someone...I dont know this one was pretty tough!!

There you have,go link up and play!!

Me,Myself & I

I have done one of these for a while and hell I kinda need to right now,so here it goes.

I want you to know that Im the person who doesnt give a flying fuck about your problems(this only goes out to certain people not all)

I am STILL ADDICTED to FACEBOOK,I truly understand how people on drugs feel,I try to stop but I cant!!!

I still drink,it keeps me from going crazy psycho mom/wife.

I look at my self sometimes and wonder why I seem to yell and bitch at my kids alot,why Im a hard ass when it comes to school but then I look at my boys and tell myself"you know what my boys know how to read,write,spell,do math problem from the top of their head and the little ones who havent yet entered school they know their colors,shapes and alphabet" and I think Fuck It there are kids out there who cant even do that with having two parents in their household.

I do think that I should be a little better at keeping shit tidy but again with 4 energy filled boys its hard for the casa to stay clean.

I hope to be a better wife but right now all my focus and attention has to be towards the kids.

I still occasionally smoke cigarettes only when Im drinking!!(gotta stop that though,the smoking not the drinking)

I am and always will be that girl who you cant forget.

I will continue to do the best for my family even if other people think Im not.

I will continue to have hating ass/backstabbing people in my life cause Im just too damn badass and they wished they were like me!!;)

I still forgive to easily.

Even under my hard exterior under neath it all Im a little girl who needs love and acceptance.

Im one hell of a good writer(at least I think so)

I love to blog!

I tend to put on a smile even when Im having a shitty day,nobody likes a debbie downer !!

and most importantly I seriously love all you blogging peeps,you always seem to be there when I need a quick pick me up and for that Im truly grateful.

Carol

WWTK

1)Everyone seems to have a quirky family situation-- what is something unique about your family dynamic?
2)What is the most stressful aspect to blogging (aside from the network going down)?
3)We all end up on a blog at some point in our day, but name your top 3 favorite websites you flock to daily (non blog)!
4)What’s your sign? Believe in it or not, does any part ring true to you?
5)IceCream!! ICECREAM!! We all scream for icecream! Name your favorite flavor/brand! (Its hot here, can't help it)

BONUS QUESTIONS
A. Name the blog you credit for linking up with us today?
B. Suggest a question you want to see in future WWTK'S !

My Answers-

1)Family-the one thing I LOVE is that we are very spontaneous,we love to just go! it takes time to to gather all our shit up but when dad says get in the truck we gotta get in the truck,last minute trips are the best!!! and he never tells us where were going,love that!

2)Blogging- I hate have writers block!! cause lord knows I need to wirte and plus writing is one of the things Im really really good at,Hell hubby says I should right an Excuse book cause I have one for everything in life, so he says ;)

3)Top 3-
Facebook-Im Addicted and I do some serious stalking!!
Email-I always check my email,thats the first thing I do when I hop on a computer.
Bank- because I married a man who loves to spend money,Im the penny pincher,yes people Im a CHEAP-O!!!

4)Sign-Im a freaking Libra!!!!


5)Ice Cream- Rocky Road thats the only ice cream I will eat !!!!

Bonus Question-
A-Confessions from an Implusive Addict

Go link up !!

Truth Is

“A woman’s heart is not bought by the currency of a man’s emotion for her. A woman’s heart is won over by her own feelings for herself when he just happens to be around.”

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”

Random

“If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn’t part of ourselves doesn’t disturb us.”

See You Soon

***WARNING***this post is gonna have alot of fuck you's and what nots so please be aware of that when you start to read this post of mine.also in no way am trying to offend anyone who is an officer of the law,Im just talking to the motherfucker who decide to be racist against my hard working husband!!!!

A big FUCK YOU to the basterd that went ahead and pulled over my babe last night at @7pm,you stupid fuck he was coming home from working on his damn pool at work!!! why in the hell would you give him crap when he was less than a block away from home!?!?!?!over a fucking baclight being out?? Really,I mean Really!????!!! I was driving around like a mad woman with my freakin' kids tied up till their poor little necks with seat belts trying to find him,I was driving 70 in GOT DANG 30 MPH SCHOOL ZONE you dumb fuck!!!I was thinking the worst we just found out he's having heart trouble and thats the first thing that came to mind,Fuck !!! then Im stuck without a fuckin' phone so all I can really do is drive around hoping to see our truck and I stayed up till 1 am looking for him with no clue to where he could be until we finally got the news that he was in jail! JAIL!!! STUPID ,Stupid state tropper!!!I know that man can drive me crazy,hell sometimes I wanna choke his ass put him in a big black trash bag and dump into Lake Houston(did I just write that?!?!?) but when he's gone I swear I miss that man like crazy!!!I love you babe and I hate the fact that6 your there and not here with us,my poor phillip said he didnt want to leave from the bail bonds place cause we had to wait for you he even fought and yelled at your mom because she started the truck!!! and my baby otis said lally is taking to long,wheres lally!!!now is just a matter of waiting for your call so we can go and pick you up :) but it seems like it's taking FOREVER!! I love you babe! and I'll see you soon :)
Love, your wife & kids :)
P.S
FUCK YOU,you dumb ass cop!!! go to hell and kiss my big ass!!!!!!!!!FUCK YOU !!!!!

WWTK

So here are the questions:


1). If the blogging world had a talent show, what would your act be?

2). What's the most likely reason you might become famous?
3). What question are you repeatedly asked that you are tired of hearing?
4.) What's the last thing you broke?
5.) Finish this sentence. I can't believe I used to ________.

1)Talent-I suck at dancing,drawing,singinghmm maybe just about everything but if I had to choose something it would be the talent of finding anything and everything on google(we're best friends)your sick,I can tell you what you have,you cant find an answer to a test, bet your ass I can find it.

2)Famous-this one is a tough one cause again I dont know unless stalking James Franco & Charlie Hunnam would count. those two are too damn hott!!!!

3)Question-my younger two babies/wild animals,they Always ask me if theyre twin and I do mean Always.at walmart,doctors office,grocery store every freaking where !!! No they are not they are 13 months apart,not twins!!!!!!kinda pisses me off!!!!

4)Broke-I always seem to break a dish or cup when Im washing them suckers in the sink!!!What youre surprised I dont use the dishwasher??? dont like too but maybe if I started Id have less things breaking huh?!?!?!

5)Sentence-I can't believe I used to ________.sneak out of my parents house to go party and I mean PARTY!! which now I think SHIT!! wait till my 4 boys get to that age and start sneaking out!!! but unlike my momma,this crazy yelling momma here will catch their asses!! bet that kids!!!!!Yes you do have a crazy mother!!! :)

And there you have it go link up to these ladies Janette,Mamarazzi, and Shawn

Practice

Happiness is a state of minds and like all things, it takes practice.

Wickedness

“Wicked people never have time for reading. It’s one of the reasons for their wickedness.”

WWTK

Here we go again


1.} What must you do before you go to bed at night?
2.} What is one thing you must snack on at the theater?
3.} Before going on vacation what must you do?
4.} What is one thing you must do every day?
5.} Is there something you do that must be done in a particular order?

and of course you all want to know my awesome answers,

1)Before Bed- I have to make sure ALL doors are closed(kinda OCD)because of course my behind will not be able to sleep,that includes cabinet doors,pantry,closet,restroom,kids bedroom etc.!! I know I know Im weird in a special you cant be like me kinda way !!
2)Snack- duh popcorn!! oh and sour punch but i only like the sourness then they go right back in the bag.
3)Vacation-well since there is 6 in this family I make sure I have all our bags/clothes/toiletries together.
4)Everyday thing- check my email sometimes it may be just junk mail but its freaking email!!!
5)In Order- I may or may not have a minor case of ADD/ADHD/OCD so i tend to do everything have ass and then finish at random times,if that makes sense?!??

and there you have it,take your ass on over and link up.

My Anthem

This is the song that plays in my twisted little mind allday every day.Im in my own zone!!! One of a kind I tell ya :) and my favorite verse is the second one because it is sooo me!!!!
"I dont give a fuck nigga, fuck everybody
You dont need that bitch everybody, fuck everybody
You a scary nigga, you scared everybody
If she a scary bitch, she scared of everybody
It's Treal Lee nigga, Triple D nigga,
Aint shit about my city you can tell me nigga,
Bitch I'm the shit you can smell me nigga,
Aint nothing in these streets you can sell me nigga"

and for your listening pleasure here it goes...



Yes I know Im a little ghetto,just a little though !!
and if you dont like that fact,Fuck You.

Scars

And I ask you right here to please agree with me that a scar is never ugly. It is what the scar makers want us to think. But you and I, we must make an agreement to defy them. We must see all scars as beauty. Right? This will be our secret. Because take it from me, a scar does not form on the dying. A scar means I survived.”

WWTK

Everyones Doing It ...



Here are the questions for this week:


{1} If you could choose a Super Power, what would it be?
{2} What would be your first frivolous purchase if you were awarded a million dollars tomorrow?
{3} What would be the hardest current luxury for you to give up?
{4} If you were given a choice between being given great wisdom and great wealth, which would you choose?
{5} If you were to be stranded on a deserted island for 100 days what 5 THINGS would you pack?


and here I go...

1)Super Power-I would have to go with telepathy but I choose to go with something as simple as Flying,cause when shit hits the fan..Im taking off!!!I could really use it right now too.

2)Million Bucks- I have to say for this one I would buy like 15 acres worth of beautiful land to lets these animals,I means kids run around and get tired then would come my beatiful country home,and since Im a big animal freak(i do have 4 mini ones) I would get a couple of cows and horses.That would be perfection for me Im not to into the city life but fuck it, its where Im at.

3)Luxury- the Internet if you can call it luxury,yes people I am addicted to the internet,it keeps me sane sometimes!!!

4)Wisdom or Wealth-Id like to say wealth but I go for Wisdom because money doesnt make you happy!! and if you already have the million bucks and you choose wealth would that make you greedy?!?!?!?

5)Deserted Island- 5 things
1) Food& Water unlimited supply ofcourse.
2) a fucking boat
3) a Genie cause for the shit I dont think of he can make it happen duh!!!!!
4) a bed cause Lord knows I do not want sand up my bum!!!!
5) I too am gonna go for my toothbrush.

There you have it,go link up and share your answers.

One Day

you know im a bit of a tough cookie and sometimes shit really doesnt matter to me but when it comes down to it all the things that are able to hurt me and get me down are fucking piece of shit words,they hurt even more when they come from loved ones.certain people in my life I could give a rats ass about but when hurtful shit comes out your mouth it fucking hurts you fucking asshole! what makes you think thats it okay to say shit like that? especiall when all I do is fucking everything to benifit you!!!not only have I lied and cheated for your ass to be where your at and what I get is a "stupid bitch" you have yet to see what this "stupid bitch" is capable of and trust me when I say this "You will Regret everything you've ever said and done to me."when you gets yours you will fuckiing break down and cry like a little bitch and think of me!! and by then it will be to late for you to apoligize.I can only take so much and frankly your pushing it.you think that I dont do shit all day and if you were to stay home all day with 4 boys yelling,fighting and crying it would drive you nuts!!!and all I can do is put up a fucking smile and pretend everything is okay for the sake of my children!!! I needed to get this off my chest and this is where it going to be for you to read one day.

WWTK

1)What game show have you always thought you could be on and totally WIN!
2)Do you have a tattoo(s)? What are they and what made you chose them? If not, would you get one, yes/no/why?
3)What is your favorite piece of jewelry that you own?
4)What is your driving pet peeve(s)?
5)What was your favorite sitcom growing up that you wish was still on?

Now my answers,
1)Game Show-duh what else freaking Wheel of Fortune,I'd totally kick ass in that hell I even have it on my phone!!

2)Tattoo-I only have one and its on my wrist,pink stars and my hubby/son name Daniel,when the hubby pisses me off it's my son's name!!! hahaha(he hates when I say that)

3)Jewelry-my fav. has to be the diamond heart necklace I got for christmas last year,Why? BECAUSE HE WENT TO JARED!!!!!!!! :)

4)Pet Peeve- SLOW DRIVERS!!!! get the hell outta my way!!! geesh is that too much to ask for!?!?!?!?!

5)Sitcom-hmm this one is tough cause theres so many I could choose from,Family Matters,Step By Step,and yes Im gonna go there Full House.

Go Link Up !!! Happy Hump Day :)

Some random quotes I found online.

She tells enough white lies to ice a wedding cake.

It is most unwise for people in love to marry.

The Bible tells us to love our neighbors, and also to love our enemies; probably because generally they are the same people.

I love this song !!

Laugh

“The only way to get through life is to laugh your way through it. You either have to laugh or cry. I prefer to laugh. Crying gives me a headache.”

Random

It takes more courage to reveal insecurities than to hide them, more strength to relate to people than to dominate them, more manhood (or womanhood) to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex. Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind.

Lastnight

this post was supposed to be written last night but when I got home it was already a liitle late.
Lastnight as I was driving home and flippin' through the radio stations I came acroos a song that reminded me of you and before I knew it tears came running down my face.I cant beleive your gone,its hard to comprhend on why this happened to you.all the memories I have of you are filled with laughter and love.Imiss you very much and really wished you were still around.It sucks that the day I decide to visit you it will have to be in a cementary,Im going to miss out on the hug that you would of gave me, on you saying to me "mija finalmente estas aqui"forgive me if I never reached out to you but Im extremely happy that before you left this earth I was able to tell you that I love you.I will never forget that day and we did it through facebook,of all places!!!I know now that you are in a place where you feel no pain,where your able to see all of us at the same time,where you get to smile upon us and I hope one day I will be there sitting next to you.Como te extrano mi tio querido!!!Yo queiro que sepas que nunca te olvidare,siempre te voy a tener en mi corazon.
Con mucho carino de mi parte, Carol Hernandez

Random

"Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused.”

Karma dont know this Bitch

I dont even know how to start this post but here it goes..


last week I was checking our bank statements on line when I saw a charge for a local resturant,of coyrse it wasnt me cause lord knows that with my 2 babies a resturant meal is going to mcdonalds or burger king.I ask the man playfully just like this"so how was your food from Rico's?"he laughs and says"how do you know"duh I stay at home! okay well Im not one to ever ask why when or where because Im just not that type,I know he always takes his employees to lunch so it was no big deal.(his employees include 3 males and 1 female)Fast forward to this week,yesterday to be excat I was doing laundry when I came upon the receipt from the resturant and this is what it said..1 fajitas for 2,3 bud beers,and 2 margaritas.?!?!?!Now Im not one to jump to conclusions bacause Im the type that knows everything from you or about just by a simple hello,and this shit here caught me off guard!how do 4 people eat from this and then the margaritas???hmmmmm had me thinking!!!! but then I was like you know what Fuck It!!! I knew Karma was a bitch but she hasnt met this Bitch named Carol!!! and I was surprised bacaise the only karma I have coming my way has to do with my kids(I treated my mom like shit)and nothing else and I do mean nothing else!!!!!!!!!! well you know what when my mind thinks of this word REVENGE it comes up with some pretty fucked up shit and this bitch know excatly where to throw those low blows,I know how to make it hurt like there aint no tomoorow,I will say some shit to youm that you will NEVER forget,I will throw all your dirt in your face,I will make you go fucking insane!! thats just the type of BITCH I am if and only when you do me wrong!!!I have always had the I dont give a fuck mentality and this gives me a reason to fuck some shit up up but I havent yet got all the clues,the last time this shit happened lets just sayboth of them got hurt in ways to this day they cant forget!! and I had it wrong the first time around so I have to keep my shit together and think throughly on this one.I could be a sorry ass m-f but not yet not yet.
Fuck Im sure this is a long one but I just had to get it out,

Franco

Well I have to say that it is 9:20 ish here in Texas and i have finished cleaning the bathroom,kitchen,living room and im about to be done with laundry!!!!!today has been a very productive morning and I owe i all to the best sister in law ever Rosa,she gave me a call at 7am just to let me know that James Franco would be attending U of H in the fall of 2012 and Im a very big fan of Franco!!!!this made me very happy cause there is only a few actors that I really love and I do mean love everything they are in even if it sucks!!!and these men cut it in my book...



and

and it always gets me excited to hear when one of my favs. is coming to texas!!!This day is a FUCK ALL YOU DEBBIE DOWNERS cause this Bitch is very happy right now!!!and not to mention that from now till 2012 it gives me plenty of time to think thoroughly my plan to stalk,kidnap and do...oh wait I have family who reads this blog!!lets just say I will be a happy camper!!! P.S I am so laughing in a dr.evil pinky in the air laugh!!!!
Sorry about the enormous pics!