2011

Since I got home this morning at 3am and left on the 31st,this post is my 1-1-2011.

Happy New Year everybody!

Next- I want this part to be just for you Benny,Happy Birthday(1-1)I know your dad was able to speak to you on your day and I was lookimng forward to talk to you too but again it didn't happen.This is what I wanted to say...
happy birthday Benny,we miss you and love you alot,I really wish you were here with us and I know for a fact you would've loved to be with us cause your just like your dad always smiling and laughing and I miss seeing that in you.I hope your doing good in school cause if your not you know I will make you do work on your vacation time cause we've done it before :)tell damion we miss him too and don't ever forget we love you both !!! That's all that I wanted to say to you on this day. love you !!

Now- for some reason at the stroke of 12am,as I was calling everybody and they momma to wish them a happy new year only one thing kept popping in my head,one name,one smile,one look.It was you :) and as bad as I wanted to call you and hear your voice for some reason I just knew you were feeling the same way,I hope !!!! Happy New Year ;)

Then-we continued to have sooo much fun I don't think Ive drank that many different liquids a once,Hennesy,Nuvo,Bacardi both clear and gold,and champagne.I was totally wasted and Im kinda scared of what pictures I will be tagged in on FB from 3 different folks!!!!!!but It was a hell of a night.

so now I'm at home sober ass hell and catching up on my household duties.

Happy 2011 !!!!!

All Smiles

You were in my dreams last night,it has left a smile on my face.Even if only in my dreams.

Stalkerville

Ok well since now I'm the one being STALKED(I JUST LOVE HOW YOU MAKE ME YOUR 1st PRIORITY)by the Wicked Witch.You will get your own post hunny.

Why must you keep checking in on my life?Is that how bad your life is treating you that you have to TRY to cause problems in my MARRIAGE(I know that hurts)Well sweety,it's not!My HUSBAND knows excatly what I blog about and hunny you're not that important that I would spend my days writting about you(just this exception,cause you asked for it)I understand that your still in love with my HUSBAND but really...don't waste your time trying to pick a fight.I personally don't know you and don't wanna know you,your kids on the other hand are the ones that I care about.They were here before my kids came along and for that reason I LOVE THEM!!!!I'm sure you wished I was a bad step mom but I'm not and you should be glad that I'm not!!Childern are never at fault for the mistakes their parent's make.I ask myself "Why must she do this"but then I remember that you wish you were in my shoes.There will never be a female that could last even 5 minutes in my shoes..here's why..
I stay at home allday,I don't work,I clean,I cook,I don't have anyone to just leave my kids with so I can work and go to school,I put up with alot of fighting from the kids,I do 6 loads of laundry every week sometimes more,I get chewed out when shit don't go right,My son has ADHD and takes no medication for it,My kid has kidney problems,My kid has anger issues and he's only 4,I have family members that don't help my family and I out,I don't have anyone I can just pick up the phone and talk about my problems..that's why I write,My husband is jealous and demanding(love the fucker though)I do drink alot of wine just so I can relax a little since Im not in the clubs,I am ME.My lifestyle some would say it's hard.For a fact I know NOONE could do what I do!!!!!!

Thank You for STALKING me.......makes me happy to know I'm that important to someone.