Blog Love

Hey guys another thing I forgot to inform you is that I have another blog solely for the purpose of reviewing books,I just started this month so hang in there as I start to do many more reviews.Oh,Read It.

Do You See Me

Lately I ve wondered what your doing,how youre feeling.Yet I have no courage to actually go see these things for myself.Has anything changed from the last encounter?A smile was all it ever took and these days a smile is all I need.Do I ever cross your mind or am I a reflection of your past.Have you shed tears over something I dont know about and probably never will,there's this constant reminder of what you left behind and frankly I'm not gonna lie I ve tried to forget about it all and the outcome is always the same.A simple sight of different objects always brings it back and for that instance that smile I know I needed is put on my face.If you ever come across this blog you'll know which ones are for you.I go to all the familiar places we've encountered,I sit and reflect on the times when it seemed easier when in fact it was actually harder. Patiently I wait for a moment that may never come but to me the word never is something I can look forward too.

Finally

I am back!! It seemed like it was the longest week of my entire life waiting for this internet to be fixed.Christmas the kiddos had alot of fun they received everything they wanted plus more.I seriously missed blogging which at times I dont blog as often as I should but boy did I miss it and reading all of your blogs as well.I do have a couple of things I want to write but it'll have to be in another post not this one.

Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
Happy Hanukkah

To all my readers
love you guys!!!

Lies & Deception

I tell you this week is not even over and it has been sooo shitty!!! Big Black is not fucking working,she's my burban!!! now I gotta walk everywhere I need to go,good thing is school is a block away and I need the excersise.I really hope 2012 is way better than this year it fucking sucked balls!!!!!! Ive still been looking for work but no luck.Monday was even worse,I mean I understand that sometime people have to lie in order to NOT hurt the people around them but to lie and shut the door in your face is something totally different.I know that lies can hurt and even destroy the things around you but shit really how do you tell four different lies in one conversation,then to think that this particular person was the only one we could see and trust the way we did...a fucking shame.but its okay as I blog about all my troubles I know there are some stupid fucking air headed people who will use this to their advantage and go run their fucking piece of shit ass mouth and sweety go ahead what more can you do to me????? Im used to not having anyone I can trust,Im used to not having family who I can turn too,used to always being the subject in someones conversation and you know what Im still standing and Im still doing all the things I want and can do.I hate not being able to express myself only because I always think about the other people around me and the stupid "what if" I hurt them bullshit.and that my friends is why I blog to express my hurt and disappointment,my thoughts and if this is the only way to do it then so be it.I know I need just a little bit of faith to overcome some of these things but it gets hard really hard for me at times.Oh and I forgot to mention that I deleted my facebook because that too was a way for you bitches to keep tabs on me,FUCK YOU !!!!!! and may you whores keep doing what you do best....Being Sluts,Bitches & Skanks.
Okay I feel better now and to the people who do wish to see me succeed, Thank You.

Kids Book Exchange

This seems like one fun book exchange,if any of my readers would like to do this..come on with it.

You get the email with the kids name, age, and address.
You buy a book and ship it to them with one week of getting the email.
You can buy a book on amazon or a site like that and save yourself the shipping hassle.
Then you forward the email to 6 others.
You send one book and you or your child will get 35 back!
How awesome does that sound?
Pretty awesome to me.

It's easy just leave me your email address and I'll send you the Book Exchange Email.

Happy Birthday Damion

Even though I may not be your biological mother,YOU are my kids too.I know one day we will be together but for now MY only way of knowing of the two of you is through pictures.I wish I could call everyday and ask how are you,I wish that I could see yall every weekend,I wish I could hug yall till yall say stop it carol but I cant.It breaks my heart knowing I cant be around because your mommy doesnt allow it and I would would rather look at pictures than to have your mom tell YOUR dad that he cant see yall.One day the two of you will be old enough to understand why everything happened the way it did and you too will also see how tried to keep you from us.I miss yall very much boys not a day goes by that I dont think about yall,all the kids always ask when can we pick up Damion & Benny and my only answer to them is I dont know.I remember when yall were small and still in diapers and on bottles,I remember when I took both of those things away,the places we went together,the day little Daniel was born and the both of you wanted to carry him so bad,all the new food you tried,everything those memories will forever stay with me.Words cant explain just how bad I wish you were here.how Id love to hear my name being called from you two.You boys have and will always have a BIG place in my heart because to me yall are my kids too.I love yall very much.
Happy 11th Birthday Damion(in the red)

Love Always,
Carol