Sometimes I hate ya'll

Right when I think things are gonna be okay something else hits the fan,why oh why must ya'll love to give me shit about everything that I do!?!?!?!?I dont blame ANYONE for any mistakes that I have made in my 25 years of life.I do not judge any mistakes yall have made because hunny theres alot,all I have ever wanted to for shit to be okay,no drama,no nothing!!but as usual any little thing triggers my almost going okay day!I have never said anything to anyone of the things we've done and just as a I start to think that I can start talking to my own fucking family and star trusting in you,this shit happens.WHY?????? when I fucking need yall the most I cant even talk to you,I have to talk to someone who knows nothing about my background and the shit Ive been though and believe it or not that person's words are very comforting and then I realise how I had a family member that I could talk too just like that!!!! but I dont fucking have that!!!!!I have a mother who says that Im her enemy,a sister who should have my back no matter what but she rather tell our mother of the shit that I apparently say about her,BITCH read though the lines!!!!3 brothers that I dont see or talk too just like when we were smaller!!!You bitches have me crying...........I wish that I didnt have this big ass heart that cares about everyone even when they hurt me!!so that i can just not give a fuck but damn it i do and thats what makes me cry,that i care about the shit you do to me!!!!I wish i could trust,i wish i had that support system from you.It hurts me so much to think that my own family does things to me that hurt me this way.I wish things didnt have to be this way but they are and to both my SISTER AND MOTHER....I wish you the best of luck but forget about me cause if all you do is bring me to tears I dont need you!!!!!!!!!!

If I didnt makes no sense....fuck you its what im feeling right now!!!!!!!!!!!

Patience

I thought i knew what i was supposed to do,but i don't. i've come to realise that all i have to do is wait and hope for the best. why is that so much more easier said then done? i want to be the person i really am and not what others want me to be.i want to do as i please and not worry what others think,say exactly what's on my mind and not care.i don't know what else i'm suppose to be doing ????? but i do know this.......FUCK YOU if you don't like what you see!!!!!!this is me,an i'm trying my best to do as much as i can.you can't change a person unless they change themselves first. “And this bird you can not change” it is what it is . patience is the game i'm playing but how much longer must it be before i find out if i'm winning or if i'm losing ?

My Very First AWARD

OMG,my very first award bitches!!!!!!I don't even know how to act right now!?!?!?!?!? First I would love to thank ALL YOU BITCHES AND HOES for actually reading my shit.No really thank you for following me,makes my day go by much easier.I think there is some shit that goes along with this award hold on let me check.................Ok I'm back,I gotta tell you 7 things about me and give this award to 15 bloggers,lets see who gets it!?!?!?!?!?!?

7 THINGS
1)I am allergic to peanut butter and I love that stuff(but it'll kill me)
2)I am addicted to the Internet(it's the devil,I tell ya.)
3)I am a stay at home momma of 4 boys and I'm only 25!!!
4)I really hate that I always try to see the good in everyone(even when they're asses)
5)I tend to drink alot,even during the week(damn,I have alot of addictions..)
6)Sometimes I really don't give a shit about anyone!!!!!!!
7)I love where I am,who I am and what I have become,because this bitch only knows where Ive been!!!!

Now 15 Bloggers...
Botch..real cool chick!
Gossip..who doesn't love gossip?
The Queen..she's the fucking queen!
The Brat..one bad ass mexican chick!!!
Not Worth Mentioning..kinda my Favorite stalker!!

I cant think of any more but If I do I will be back to link your ass up,don't cry!!

And again thank you EnVii for poppin' my award cherry!!!!!!!!

Weezy..

I lost my mind and still haven't found it.

I got ice in my veins, blood in my eyes, hate in my heart, love in my mind.

I search, but never find. Hurt, but never cry. I work and forever tired.

I am the only fire that can live in the rain.

I have no stress, because I am the best.

Monday Madness

I am BEYOND irritated,pissed,bitchy,assholey etc...today!!Been up since 5am and this day is straight kicking my ass!!!So I am now drinking a big glassful of FUCK IT.

That is all Bitches!!!! :)

Johnnie Taylor - Good Love

Love this song.

Well as some of you might know the one and only CB is leaving us to join the non blogging world.Since this is MY blog this one's for you.

I will miss you hooker,you were the person that knew just what to put on my comments to make my shitty day turn into a laugh fest.I know this Blog thing is simply a gateway for alot of us but girl,you are ONE OF A KIND!There will not be another like you.I will miss your ass like no other,but I am happy that you have decided to leave CB to become ASHLEY,I'm sure she too is one hell of a chick!You are and will always be the one female blogger that i just couldn't wait to see that the hell you had to write about.My favorite post was the little brother one as I too had to go through the same shit.I hope you have the time of your life.You will be missed.

Love Always,
Sinful

Saturday Six

The Rules:


1.) You MUST take our amazing Saturday Six button and place it in your Saturday Six post!
2.) You MUST link back to ALL the hosts blogs in your Saturday Six post! Not just to my blog, or just to Ashlee's & not even just to Ange's Blog -- You have to link to ALL of the hosts blogs in the post, it's just good manners!
3.) You MUST link up an ACTUAL Saturday Six post where you are actually participating in The Saturday Six. So please do NOT link up your giveaways or just link up your blog when you're not going to actually participate! Again, it's just good manners!
4.) You MUST plat the game correctly. That's the whole point, we all wanna see who you would pick to get freaky with, who you would pick to tie the knot with and who you would choose to kick the bucket. It's no fun if you say kill them all, kill two of them, and don't get nasty with or marry anyone.
This weeks questions are:


1. Worst movie ever made..in your opinion?

I really cant think of one but I think it would be Titanic,Im probab
ly getting chewed out by ALL of you right now but what the hell I dont care!


2. A stranger you encounter has toilet paper hanging from their pants..or spinach in their teeth...insert any embarrassing item here..Do you tell them?

I KNOW that I should say something but being me I probably wouldnt.Karma will one day kick my ass for it,this I know!


3. Tell us ONE thing that annoys you. Yes, just one.

When there is alot of dishes in the sink,not because I dont want to do them but because I hate when they pile up.Annoys the hell out of me!!


4. What's your biggest beef about the opposite sex in general? (Don't be skurred, we won't rat you out.)

Theyre men!!simple as that!They get away with way too much.


5. Would you donate your eggs/sperm to an infertile couple?

Yes,if I got paid for it!My babies are ADORABLE!



6. What's the last book you read?

The Notebook,for like the millionth time but it is my favorite!!!

B.S.F

You bitches love PURPLE MONKEY BALLS on Friday's.
On another note..I just want to say THANK YOU to all my followers,you hookers make me sooo happy!!!My H looks at me all funny when I get excited over new followers!I'm new to the blogging world but I have to say I FUCKING LOVE IT!!I don't think I can stop now.Love ya Sluts!

All Smiles

You were in my dreams last night,it has left a smile on my face.Even if only in my dreams.

Inviting My Mother

My writing prompt for this week is....3.) Why I'm not inviting my mother to read my blog...

Well first off I was BLESSED to have a Mother and a Momma.My mother is what I would call....a total witch(switch the first letter)From the get go it's a hate/hate relationship.I might just post that some other day.

My reason for me not inviting my mother to read my blog or to anything I do is
1)I have never been the"GOOD"child that she wants.
2)She STILL hasn't approved H and we have been together since 14/15.
3)Just like she did with us,she has her favorite in my kiddos(1 only).
4)I know you only have 1 mother but DAMN lady act like one.

And my favorite one..
5)I AM A DADDY'S GIRL!!!!!!!!

From The Bottom Of My Heart

I am going to blog about the miners in Chile because I have watched this from the very beginning up until the last 33rd miner was out.I have also been crying my ass off like a little bitch even when I know that every single man is coming out the exact same way.I am an emotional wreck!I am truly AMAZED at the power one country has for it's people and the will to NEVER give up.I do not care that some of the men were cheating all that matters is that they are safe and that they are with their families.I could just imagine how much everyone was hurting,how they were wondering if they were ever gonna see their families again.I do not know what the hell I would of been doing or even thinking if that were me.!.!.!What I do know is that God will FOREVER bless those men and their family for everything that they have endured.And from the bottom of my heart my love and prayers go out to every single man and their families that have went through this!

LOVE from your AMERICAN FRIENDS.

For You Erik

You know why I'm posting this.

This past Saturday I decided to throw a party,since my kids and I all have birthdays in October,and one on the very last day of September.Well the party was fucking AWESOME!!!We had family and friends over and my very close friends from when back when..Bacardi,Jack Daniels,Hennesy and that blue bitch Hypnotiq.So you know it was banging!!!We had the DJ system and all!Well as the night progresses I'm feeling fantastic and the mexican in me comes out.There is a spanish song playing and not only do I wanna dance to it but I wanna dance with my little brother.(I'm not a dancer..but I have some really cool skills!!!)If your mexican you'll know what Im talking about when you hear that song of when everybody and they momma get on the dance floor to stomp the ground,well that's the fucking song I wanted to dance too(I was drunk)I know!!!!I shout out to him and say "let's dance"he just looks at me and says NOTHING(I felt like an ass)and I realize he 's not drinking!?!?!?!?(he's a drinker)Then it all clicks...all that weird/sad bullshit on facebook.Then he spills the beans.

He says that his girl(ex-now)told him this"I don't want you to be mad but I want some space/I need a break(I'm trying my best to remember I did say I was drunk)and that all he said was "that's cool"as simple as that,nothing else.My little brother was heart broken!!!

This is for the little girl who did this-WTF is wrong with you?Why would you do this to him?He is one hell of a guy!!I will make sure that he hates you by the end of this post,you skanky little girl.And to think I actually wanted to meet you and bring you to my house.Don't under estimate the power behind this short ass stay at home mom of 4 kids!!!I am the oldest of 5 and trust me I have done this before.NO ONE MESSES WITH MY SIBLINGS!!!!

My brother is the life of the party,Freestyle King some may say,never a party pooper,always laughing and he was not there.What was there was depressed rock music listening,not talking brother.Fuck that bitch!You can do better,she ain't shit!!!!!!Don't ever let a Bitch bring you down!I love you and keep doing you playa!!!!

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Lastnight I was FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKEEEDDDD UP!!!!!! still a little hung over!Later Bitches!

Bitch I'm Famous

YOU MADE MY FUCKING DAY!!!!I was just gonna spend my friday sleeping all damn day but I'm not.You Rock Copyboy!!!!Go check him out.

It Didn't Burn Down

Today was the start of a new journey for my kiddos,they went to church!Awana is the program they are attending and it's from 6:30-8pm.WooHoo some time alone with the H!!!Well I enrolled 3 out of 4 cause Im just not yet ready to be left alone with no babies!!I got some things done around the casa and I was kindof thinking about the little fuckers(I know sounds funny)Well I go to pick them up and My golly they are super stoked about their "new" classes!!They said that they would want to go back next week!!Yes,that's excatly what I wanted.Any little free time away from them is good especially when they are at church!Now to my title,well lets just say that this church passed because having 4 members of this family under their roof....that place might of exploded!!!!!!That is all.DUECE.

My.Mommy.Moment

Today.I.was.thinking.about.my.other.babies.I.haven't.seen.them.for.awhile.and.it.sucks.balls!!!I.wish.I.could.call.them.and.ask.how.they.are.doing.but.I.cant.since.you'll.throw.the.biggest.bitchfit.ever!!I.know.what.you.wish.to.expect.from.me.and.I'm.sorry.to.burst.your.bubble.that.person.is.not.me.The.only.people.you.are.hurting.are.your.kids!instead.of.you.telling.them.go.visit.your.dad.or.even.calling.to.see.if.we.can.pick.them.up.instead.of.sending.a.childish.text.saying"it's.been.2.months.since.you've.seen.them"Grow.up!anyways.I.miss.my.bonus.kids.and.I.wish.they.were.here.every.single.weekend.with.us!This.is.for.you.boys-We.LOVE.you,no.matter.what.anyone.tells.you,we.miss.you.and.we.are.ALWAYS.thinking.about.ya'll!One.day.when.you.guys.are.older.you.will.know.that.we.were.always.here.for.you!!!!We.Love.You.

Blogaholics Anonymous

Hi my name is Carol,and Im addicted to blogging.

Thoughts

Bitch,Whore,Slut,Trick,Waste of female,Dirty,Skank,just a few words that describe you!!!!

Fall

we finally got to exprience what it feels like to have the fall weather here in Houston,we usally get 2 options hot and cold but these last couple of days it actually feels like fall.I love this type of weather!!!