Lyrics

and every time I talked to you this song came on, now I know why........

"If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be traveling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change."

"Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it so badly,
'Cause the lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change."

2011

Since I got home this morning at 3am and left on the 31st,this post is my 1-1-2011.

Happy New Year everybody!

Next- I want this part to be just for you Benny,Happy Birthday(1-1)I know your dad was able to speak to you on your day and I was lookimng forward to talk to you too but again it didn't happen.This is what I wanted to say...
happy birthday Benny,we miss you and love you alot,I really wish you were here with us and I know for a fact you would've loved to be with us cause your just like your dad always smiling and laughing and I miss seeing that in you.I hope your doing good in school cause if your not you know I will make you do work on your vacation time cause we've done it before :)tell damion we miss him too and don't ever forget we love you both !!! That's all that I wanted to say to you on this day. love you !!

Now- for some reason at the stroke of 12am,as I was calling everybody and they momma to wish them a happy new year only one thing kept popping in my head,one name,one smile,one look.It was you :) and as bad as I wanted to call you and hear your voice for some reason I just knew you were feeling the same way,I hope !!!! Happy New Year ;)

Then-we continued to have sooo much fun I don't think Ive drank that many different liquids a once,Hennesy,Nuvo,Bacardi both clear and gold,and champagne.I was totally wasted and Im kinda scared of what pictures I will be tagged in on FB from 3 different folks!!!!!!but It was a hell of a night.

so now I'm at home sober ass hell and catching up on my household duties.

Happy 2011 !!!!!

Music

Well things have been really really quiet since our girl CB left,but since I decided to take a look at my life from the outside in,I have now started thinking that maybe just maybe there really is some shit I could change,because as of this moment I want to.Lets see how long this ships sails!!!I want to DRASTICALLY reduce my alcohol intake,for the sake of my boys(drinking a little less means maybe just drinking at night when they're asleep and not watching)I would not want for them to be alcoholic like their mother and granddad(my dad)I am on Pandora Radio as we write and for some damn reason I decide to tune into my Vicente Fernandez channel........big mistake!!!now I wanna drink,that man there just hits every single note with so much power that damn it when he cries...fuck it I cry too!!!!Ilove that old fart!!!and I have too admit I'm a big Mexican when I drink but I guess I can call myself a red neck girl cause holy shit I love me some fucking Lynard Skynard!!!! I love everything they sing!!!what a combination huh....mexican redneck girl from Texas!!fuck I think I'm off topic but who the fuck cares!!!
That's It! :)