Just Remember

You reap what you sow. That's what they say. Karma can be a bitch. Everyday the world turns and for some it can turn out to be good for others bad. This may be your karma. You decided to spend my first born sons birthday with your mistress. I didn't even get to see him until 3 days later. This year you won't be able to spend the boys birthdays with them because they'll be with me. The only difference is that I don't have anyone who will be taking your place. It's sad that things didn't work out. You haven't grown up. You still haven't filled yourself with the temptations that the world has. I just want you to remember one thing. All these women want you because your name comes with a title. That title comes with money. What they don't know is the struggle WE had to endure while getting to the top. They weren't there to fill out every single application. They weren't there when you needed help to pass every drug test. They weren't there when you needed help completing every work order. They weren't they when you wanted and needed to pass your test to become the ac tech you are today. They weren't there waiting for you to be released from jail over and over again. They weren't there when your ex was being difficult. THEY WEREN'T THERE. I WAS. I was there for all of it. I was there when it was hard for us to even keep our utilities on. I always knew that you were worth the wait because I believed in you. I knew that no matter what life threw at us the end result would be great. Now that you have everything, it shows. That's why these women want you. They want the name and status you come with. No matter what you tell them about me, like all the times I left. The times I didn't do the things I was supposed to do. How I apparently cheated. How I lied. How I didn't clean. Just remember to tell them that because of ME  you are the man they see today. Because no matter how many other names you tattoo on your body my name will always remain above your heart because that's exactly where I belong. 12 years I gave you. And even that wasn't enough for you. I will always love you more than you'll ever know. And I truly want nothing but the best for you.

Follow Your Heart

By all means do what your heart.tells you. Yes I left "The door open for another woman to walk in." like you both like to say. What I didn't think was that you were going to disrespect the fact that you were still a married man. You disrespected the vows we made on February 27. You think you have yourself a winner.... boy she has you fooled. A real woman who ends up knowing that the man she is attracted to is still married and has small children should have enough respect for herself to know that if one day she were to be in that position she wouldn't want another woman interfering in her marriage. A real woman would say if it's meant to be we'll be together someday and I will not be the cause of a family separation. A real woman would atleast have the decency to talk with the wife and explain her side if the story. A real woman would not bash on the wives mistakes. A real woman would simply wait to see how this "love" turns out. A real woman would never ever be the other woman. You know my only therapy is writing, I do it better than speaking itself. I do believe that everything happens for a reason and that no matter what happens with God and the power of prayer things can get better. I don't attend church. I don't read the Bible. I have committed a ton of sins but even I know that somethings are just plain wrong. I wanted my first marriage to be my only marriage. I didn't and still don't believe in divorce but you two have taught me that a whole different side of the human race. My heart goes with you even though my heart is probably just sitting in your junk drawer. You gave me something that I am eternally grateful for... My Children. You were my first everything. I wish you well with whatever new journey lies ahead. When it's all said and done,you'll think of me.

I Don't Get It

How are you okay with being the other woman? What makes you think that what you're doing is okay? You're destroying a family of 6. Not only are you allowing this cycle to be part of your daughters life in their future. My children know this is going on and those 4 kids are the ones you're hurting Mona. Im an adult and I told you via text that I can be civil all I needed was some time to work/fix my marriage. You didn't respect that wish so from that moment you decided to continue looking and contacting my husband I decided that I will show you the meaning of a cold hearted bitch. I will continue to post your photos on the Web, I will continue to let strangers know that you're a woman who keeps contacting a married man, I will continue to call you names, I will make you regret the say I came into your life. You may have fooled everyone else but not me sweetie.

Karma's Friend

You know what really gets under my skin...when people make assumptions about me from what they have heard from other people.I know Im not the prettiest girl around shit I may not even come off as a smart girl at times but shit what gives you any right to talk about me to other people who dont know me?!I understand that Im not perfect because in my 26 years of life I have made some fucked up shit and yes I have learned from my mistakes because thats what people do they make mistakes and learn from them.I dont have anything that is worth someone looking at me and saying"I wish I had that" what I do have is a husband and kids,I have nothing to my name, not even a house hell not even a fucking car.What is it about my life that you find soo fucking great?I dont have a perfect marriage its far from that.Im a high school drop out,I had my first kid at the tender age of 17.I stay at home while my husband literally kills himself to provide for us.What do you dislike or better yet what or why do you find my life so interesting to keep talking about it?I am socially akward person,thats just who I am I dont allow other people to see the person I really am because I hate to be judged,I dont judge anyone!!not even when I should tahts not for me to decide or to even talk about.I dont ever let anyone or anything get to me beacause the way I see it is that if you tak that much time to concentrate to talk about me than you certainly dont have enough time to take care of your own shit and thats why the things around you dont go as planned,but this time Im pissed.I hate and I do mean hate people like that,that can one day smile to your face as if everything is okay and the next theyre barking like the bitch they truly are.WHY? I just dont get it???!!!! Really if you think that by talking bad about me makes you look any better baby girl it doesnt, because as the people you are telling these lies too are getting to know me they are noticing that the fake bitch is really you!!!!I dont have to put on a fake smile to every event I go to because I do like being out and about,I do like being seen as the awkward silent girl then the girl I heard this about and so on.Please believe that Karma is a bitch and that bitch has a good friend named Carol and that said friend can turn your life into a fucking living hell if need be.I am not afarid to get air out anything and everything I know.I can and will always be a true frind,a friend that will have your back thick or thin,a friend that you will always remember and say "Damn,I miss that girl" a friend who will always be around no matter how near or far you are.I can also be that girl who you hate,the girl who made you cry,the girl who made you question your exsistance,the girl who you wished you never lost,the girl that your scared to look at,the girl who makes your life a living hell,the girl who will spit on your name and laugh,the girl who you didnt expect to do all these things.I dont like to be that girl,I really dont but when you push my buttons to that extreme I can be that girl and I will not have any remorse for the actions that come after it.I always try my very best to keep everyone happy because I love to love if that makes any sense.Im a kind soul and I do see good in everyone but the world is full of shady people and I know I have to roll with the punches but fuck it, a girl can only do soo much.
Well thats it for my fuck you post,other than that Im having a good start of the week and weekend was beyond good.Make it a good week you guys,Love Ya!!!

Karma dont know this Bitch

I dont even know how to start this post but here it goes..


last week I was checking our bank statements on line when I saw a charge for a local resturant,of coyrse it wasnt me cause lord knows that with my 2 babies a resturant meal is going to mcdonalds or burger king.I ask the man playfully just like this"so how was your food from Rico's?"he laughs and says"how do you know"duh I stay at home! okay well Im not one to ever ask why when or where because Im just not that type,I know he always takes his employees to lunch so it was no big deal.(his employees include 3 males and 1 female)Fast forward to this week,yesterday to be excat I was doing laundry when I came upon the receipt from the resturant and this is what it said..1 fajitas for 2,3 bud beers,and 2 margaritas.?!?!?!Now Im not one to jump to conclusions bacause Im the type that knows everything from you or about just by a simple hello,and this shit here caught me off guard!how do 4 people eat from this and then the margaritas???hmmmmm had me thinking!!!! but then I was like you know what Fuck It!!! I knew Karma was a bitch but she hasnt met this Bitch named Carol!!! and I was surprised bacaise the only karma I have coming my way has to do with my kids(I treated my mom like shit)and nothing else and I do mean nothing else!!!!!!!!!! well you know what when my mind thinks of this word REVENGE it comes up with some pretty fucked up shit and this bitch know excatly where to throw those low blows,I know how to make it hurt like there aint no tomoorow,I will say some shit to youm that you will NEVER forget,I will throw all your dirt in your face,I will make you go fucking insane!! thats just the type of BITCH I am if and only when you do me wrong!!!I have always had the I dont give a fuck mentality and this gives me a reason to fuck some shit up up but I havent yet got all the clues,the last time this shit happened lets just sayboth of them got hurt in ways to this day they cant forget!! and I had it wrong the first time around so I have to keep my shit together and think throughly on this one.I could be a sorry ass m-f but not yet not yet.
Fuck Im sure this is a long one but I just had to get it out,