Happy Birthday Damion

Even though I may not be your biological mother,YOU are my kids too.I know one day we will be together but for now MY only way of knowing of the two of you is through pictures.I wish I could call everyday and ask how are you,I wish that I could see yall every weekend,I wish I could hug yall till yall say stop it carol but I cant.It breaks my heart knowing I cant be around because your mommy doesnt allow it and I would would rather look at pictures than to have your mom tell YOUR dad that he cant see yall.One day the two of you will be old enough to understand why everything happened the way it did and you too will also see how tried to keep you from us.I miss yall very much boys not a day goes by that I dont think about yall,all the kids always ask when can we pick up Damion & Benny and my only answer to them is I dont know.I remember when yall were small and still in diapers and on bottles,I remember when I took both of those things away,the places we went together,the day little Daniel was born and the both of you wanted to carry him so bad,all the new food you tried,everything those memories will forever stay with me.Words cant explain just how bad I wish you were here.how Id love to hear my name being called from you two.You boys have and will always have a BIG place in my heart because to me yall are my kids too.I love yall very much.
Happy 11th Birthday Damion(in the red)

Love Always,
Carol

Happy

Yesterday had to be one of the most mind altering day in my life,we went to pick up my bonus babies!!!!!! I was expecting the same shit like always we get there and they tell some bullshit that hey are not there but they we're,hubby talks to who I'm guessing are her brothers? and he walks up to he little patio area and since my ass is blind I couldn't see who was here but what I did see was a small white shirt wrapping his arms around babe!!! That very moment made a few ears run down my face!!! Then they both jumped in the ruck and I felt so strange like as I was meeting them for the first time or something,weird I know then I looked back and saw two smiling faces and I got a "Hi Carol" melted my mothafuckin heart away!!!! My DAMION & Benny,then we get home and my babies went ballistic hugging,high fivein', and just straight up throwing a welcome home party(I can just imagine when they get older,trust me they know how to party)lets just say their party didn't end until 2 am!! but I was happy that my kids were happy seeing their brothers again.I am a very blessed momma to have 6 boys under my roof and I hope I get he chance to continue to all of them grow up and become responsible MEN.and to top it off Fathers day weekend,I know my babe is very happy and pleased to have them all together once again.

2011

Since I got home this morning at 3am and left on the 31st,this post is my 1-1-2011.

Happy New Year everybody!

Next- I want this part to be just for you Benny,Happy Birthday(1-1)I know your dad was able to speak to you on your day and I was lookimng forward to talk to you too but again it didn't happen.This is what I wanted to say...
happy birthday Benny,we miss you and love you alot,I really wish you were here with us and I know for a fact you would've loved to be with us cause your just like your dad always smiling and laughing and I miss seeing that in you.I hope your doing good in school cause if your not you know I will make you do work on your vacation time cause we've done it before :)tell damion we miss him too and don't ever forget we love you both !!! That's all that I wanted to say to you on this day. love you !!

Now- for some reason at the stroke of 12am,as I was calling everybody and they momma to wish them a happy new year only one thing kept popping in my head,one name,one smile,one look.It was you :) and as bad as I wanted to call you and hear your voice for some reason I just knew you were feeling the same way,I hope !!!! Happy New Year ;)

Then-we continued to have sooo much fun I don't think Ive drank that many different liquids a once,Hennesy,Nuvo,Bacardi both clear and gold,and champagne.I was totally wasted and Im kinda scared of what pictures I will be tagged in on FB from 3 different folks!!!!!!but It was a hell of a night.

so now I'm at home sober ass hell and catching up on my household duties.

Happy 2011 !!!!!