To Life,To Love & To You

You can't always get what you want in life. You either get it to early to and don't appreciate it or you get it too late and you still don't fully understand what you have in front of you. The worst part about pain is the unexpected kind,the kind that hits you right in your heart. Can two souls that are meant to find each other really live without each other? Peace & clarity are in tune with each other right now. I have peace,you need clarity. For if the two shall meet once again I know that the force that is driven within our souls will finally reach it's destiny. As painful as it may be,it will be okay. To love someone is the greatest gift you can give but to lose that someone is a pain that will live within you forever. For I now know what must be done. I will see you again old friend. I wish you a journey full of peace,full of clarity,full of excitement but most of all I wish you the very best. A love like this comes once in a lifetime. I will forever be grateful for the blessings you have given me. I will always be there to remind you that I once was one of your greatest joys in life. I will always have the pleasure to say that man over there.... He was my husband a long time ago. I will always love you and that's something that no one can take away from me. I'll see you later baby. Good luck. I hope you find what you're looking for.

Your Beloved 1st Wife,
Carol

Me,Myself & I

I have done one of these for a while and hell I kinda need to right now,so here it goes.

I want you to know that Im the person who doesnt give a flying fuck about your problems(this only goes out to certain people not all)

I am STILL ADDICTED to FACEBOOK,I truly understand how people on drugs feel,I try to stop but I cant!!!

I still drink,it keeps me from going crazy psycho mom/wife.

I look at my self sometimes and wonder why I seem to yell and bitch at my kids alot,why Im a hard ass when it comes to school but then I look at my boys and tell myself"you know what my boys know how to read,write,spell,do math problem from the top of their head and the little ones who havent yet entered school they know their colors,shapes and alphabet" and I think Fuck It there are kids out there who cant even do that with having two parents in their household.

I do think that I should be a little better at keeping shit tidy but again with 4 energy filled boys its hard for the casa to stay clean.

I hope to be a better wife but right now all my focus and attention has to be towards the kids.

I still occasionally smoke cigarettes only when Im drinking!!(gotta stop that though,the smoking not the drinking)

I am and always will be that girl who you cant forget.

I will continue to do the best for my family even if other people think Im not.

I will continue to have hating ass/backstabbing people in my life cause Im just too damn badass and they wished they were like me!!;)

I still forgive to easily.

Even under my hard exterior under neath it all Im a little girl who needs love and acceptance.

Im one hell of a good writer(at least I think so)

I love to blog!

I tend to put on a smile even when Im having a shitty day,nobody likes a debbie downer !!

and most importantly I seriously love all you blogging peeps,you always seem to be there when I need a quick pick me up and for that Im truly grateful.

Carol