Lies & Deception

I tell you this week is not even over and it has been sooo shitty!!! Big Black is not fucking working,she's my burban!!! now I gotta walk everywhere I need to go,good thing is school is a block away and I need the excersise.I really hope 2012 is way better than this year it fucking sucked balls!!!!!! Ive still been looking for work but no luck.Monday was even worse,I mean I understand that sometime people have to lie in order to NOT hurt the people around them but to lie and shut the door in your face is something totally different.I know that lies can hurt and even destroy the things around you but shit really how do you tell four different lies in one conversation,then to think that this particular person was the only one we could see and trust the way we did...a fucking shame.but its okay as I blog about all my troubles I know there are some stupid fucking air headed people who will use this to their advantage and go run their fucking piece of shit ass mouth and sweety go ahead what more can you do to me????? Im used to not having anyone I can trust,Im used to not having family who I can turn too,used to always being the subject in someones conversation and you know what Im still standing and Im still doing all the things I want and can do.I hate not being able to express myself only because I always think about the other people around me and the stupid "what if" I hurt them bullshit.and that my friends is why I blog to express my hurt and disappointment,my thoughts and if this is the only way to do it then so be it.I know I need just a little bit of faith to overcome some of these things but it gets hard really hard for me at times.Oh and I forgot to mention that I deleted my facebook because that too was a way for you bitches to keep tabs on me,FUCK YOU !!!!!! and may you whores keep doing what you do best....Being Sluts,Bitches & Skanks.
Okay I feel better now and to the people who do wish to see me succeed, Thank You.

So Long Brother

As I was looking at all my facebook bullshit today I realized that my brother was not my friend,so I send him a message asking if he deleted me or what not and his response SHOCKED me !!!!

Well brother you fucked it all up !!! I didn't think that this shit would happen to me and you but you know what fuck you!!! you aint the first or the last family member that has turned his/her back on me!!!!! and if you must know..I'm gonna air your dirty laundry fucker!!!

First off what I told your girl was to find someone better than your ass cause your 17 and don't work,you spend your days smoking and drinking with your soo called friends,you beat the fuck out of the girl and that right there buddy I do not and will not allow because you did it in my fucking house!!!,you know that dad is sick and getting sicker as he ages and you rather cause him harm because the person he calls to see if I know your whereabouts is ME!!!,why do you think I told you as well that you and her were not good for each other at this point in your life??? because all I want is the best for you and her! I wish I had someone telling me at 16/17 to finish school and not to be in an abusive relationship but I didn't and I had to LEARN THE HARD WAY !!!!! but if this is what you want fine,It just hurts me soo to know that I lost you and if you know me right you know that I will not forgive you for this,I was there every time that you called me to pick you up,I was there when mom was trippin,I was there to listen,I WAS THERE FOR YOU !!! and now I will not take another person hurting me for some bull shit but again its your fucking loss.

I wish you the very best in life and I will Always LOVE YOU EVEN WHEN IM MAD AND HURT!!!!!

Your Sister,
Carol