Why..

Why is it that when you lose someone that you haven't had contact with in such a long time ,that it hurts so much.? I currently lost my uncle and the pain is un explainable...I miss him so much and I would do anything to have him back or even too have him back just enough for me to be able to see him and say Hello,Goodbye and I love you all at the same time. Its hard for me because I have so many fond memories of him and while I want to curl up and cry till I cant anymore,its this image that I'm scared for my kids to see me in.I have to be strong when inside I feel soo sad.I don't even know what I'm doing right now but I need to let this out and this is the only thing that came to mind.I hope we meet again someday but until then...I love you and I want you to know that you will always be part of me because you are my uncle and I miss you soooo much and I pray you guide me through the life I have ahead of me. Te extrano mucho Tio Dikis!!!
Con Mucho Amor,
tu sobrina Carol Hernandez